Monday, February 21, 2011

RETURN Part II - 2-21-11



Suzille: Dear Kepier, I am ready to resume our conversation. You were going to tell me about how we became a “hybrid.”

Kepier: Forgive me if I jump around in your “time.” We of the fifth dimension and beyond think within the images of the NOW. Furthermore, these images are overlaid one upon the other and intertwined, much like a picture of your DNA. However, all the multidimensional frequencies to which these images resonant are collapsed into ONE image, and Flow, much as we spoke of before, as “water” in the Cosmic Sea. Because of these differing manners of perception, we may present a concept before you would be able to understand it. Therefore, please allow the concept of becoming a hybrid to flow into your consciousness as you become ready.

We will begin this conversation with an image to assist you to think multidimensionally, as well. We, that is you and I as ONE Being, are sitting in our room looking at the holo-projector to see an image of our youth. Even though we are not bound by time, we still enjoy moving through the differing stages of life. The difference from your reality is that we remain in a certain stage until we believe that we have gained all necessary lessons of that stage. Hence, we may, for example, have a more expansive experience of one stage of life, and practically skip another stage of life. We can easily determine which stage of development we wish to focus on because we are fully aware of our parallel realities.

In my case, I chose an expanded experience of my childhood because I could perceive that you needed my assistance. In order for you to accept me into your “imagination” I matched by developmental cycle with your own. By doing this, I also learned about “time” in the third dimension. We also met frequently in the fourth dimension, which has a different experience of time. Because our realities were so intertwined, my identification of being a hybrid began. In fact, the fifth dimensional stepping-stone reality of all grounded ones has this identification.

As we sit on our room on the Ship watching our holo-projector, we realize that this holo-projector is much like your DNA in that we can change it with our thoughts. Yes, you can change your DNA with your thoughts, but we will hold that discussion for later. Visualize that you are sitting in our comfortable chair observing the holo-projector. Feel the chair around you. Smell the pleasant aroma of our room and the lightness of our fifth dimensional form. Our form is “light” in density, rather than weight. We have no weight as it is perceived in your world because our form is of Lightbody. Now STEP into the holo-projecter, so that I may show/tell you a story. We Arcturians are very fond of stories.

You see your self on another ship, the Zeta ship where you began to feel great fear. We have taken you to this picture to heal and totally erase this fear. We wish all readers to know that many of your were also taken on board Zeta Ships. We know that because the Zetas chose the children with the most Light, which you readers are, or you would not be attracted to this information. We are not at an unpleasant image, but rather in a pleasant image in which you children are gathered around the learning tree. The Zetas came from your future, about 25,000 years in your time. They were not able to ascend, as they had no emotions with which to expand their consciousness.

They did, however, know about the mechanisms of ascension. They gathered children around this tree to learn about the mechanisms of ascension, so that they could move forward into your time and perceive how you intermingled these mechanics of ascension with your great power of emotion. The Zetas can easily time travel, as it requires mind and not heart. Traveling through parallel realities, on the other hand, requires heart.

In order, to navigate into a parallel reality you must FEEL the emotional/frequency signature of that reality. We ask you to take a moment and remember the mechanics, the mental component, of ascension. You will remember this, by being in the experience of hearing the discussion around the Learning Tree. Thus, we ask the readers to follow these images, as it will serve to assist them to remember their experiences.

Feel yourself sitting on the lawn and looking at the tree. You know that you are on a ship, but you enjoy this area because it reminds you of your home. The tree appears to you as an alive being that projects pictures directly into your mind. These pictures are of how your thoughts arrange the particles of your body in differing patterns. When the tree shows you a happy picture, you see how your thoughts respond by creating symmetrical patterns that easily flow into each other. Then when you are shown unhappy pictures, you see how your thoughts align the particles of your body into chaotic patterns that are confusing and separate from other patterns.

They showed you these pictures to see how your emotional reactions influenced the patterns of your particles. When you were happy and the particles of your form were in alignment, your frequency raised and your consciousness expanded. Some of you actually rose above the ground and expanded your aura beyond the confines of that room. On the other hand, when you were unhappy, your form became denser and your posture hunched over into a protective posture. This was very interesting to the Zetas, as they had cloned out their emotions, which they came to realize was a mistake.

I now bring you out of that image and back into the image of sitting on a chair on the Arcturian Starship. As you sit here, visualize your form as being hybrid in that you have the height of human, thin body, longer arms, four digit long fingers, and physical face of human, but with much larger eyes. As you settle into this image, feel the Collective Consciousness of the Ship. Do you feel the unconditional love and unity consciousness of pure joy? Yes, we are so joyful that our grounded ones have been victorious in their awakening and ascension process. We KNOW that there are NOW enough of you to ascend the planet, which makes us rejoice!

As you continue to attune you consciousness to the Collective Consciousness of Athena, our Starship, fall into the experience of our reality that is FREE of fear and resonates ONLY to unconditional love. It may take a moment of our grounded ones’ “time” to believe that a reality can actually be FREE of fear and centered on unconditional love.

Therefore, be patient with yourself as you attempt to remember a long forgotten experience—the experience of living in complete support and total love. Think of a time in your life when you came the closest to that experience. We realize that you may have to search your memory.

Do you see how your consciousness expands with that memory? Additionally, that memory may well be of a time when your consciousness is expanded. Whichever situation is the case, notice how your expanded consciousness intertwines with the experience of freedom, love and unity. As we close our message, we challenge you search for those feelings in your daily life and place your attention THERE! In turn, detach you attention from fear, judgment and anything that threatens to lower your consciousness. We invite all the readers to ask their own stepping-stone SELF to connect with them.

For every 1 of you that Awakens and shares your experience with only one person, there are at least 2 that can Awaken. If these 2 people share with just one person, then 4 more can Awaken, which leads to 8, 16, 32, 64, 128 etc. etc. Furthermore, many of you will influence many more than 2 people, so the exponential numbers will expand even faster. It is with the power of this unity that YOU will create planetary ascension.

Sunday, February 20, 2011



It has been a week since I had that incredible meditation, but I have not had much contact with either Kepier or the Ascension Energy. I did write in my journey to ask if I should first get the information from Kepier before as a pre-requisite to receiving the ascension information and the answer was a yes. When the ascension/unity enrgy came in, I recognized it as the feel of Jesus to whom I spent my childhood and adolescence talking to. When I was a child this energy “played” with me and showed me many places and experiences, which I now know as my parallel realities.

Then, when I was a deeply depressed teenager, and wished I were dead, I would lie on my back on my bed and look up to the ceiling and talk to Jesus. I knew that I could not lie to him, so I had to tell the truth. The good thing was that I heard that truth, as well. I personified this great energy into the Being of Jesus, as that is the only explanation that made sense, other than the possibility that I was “crazy.” I now know that this energy was the force of ascension/unity. I say this about the energy, as I don’t want to appear religious, especially any particular religion. I have studied and respect all religions. I see how the Avatar that created the movement for every religion was wildly misquoted after he/she left the physical plane.

I think that all the Avatars have grounded this ascension/unity energy on Earth, but it is not until NOW that we can begin to use this energy. I call it “ascension/unity” because we, the members of Gaia, will need to unite in order to ascend the planet. I was reticent to say the name Jesus, as I did not want to look as if this ascension process does not include the entire world and every manner of belief and communication with the higher dimensions. With the above explanation, from here on I will use the term “ascension/unity energy.”

With that introduction, I will begin my communication with Kepier, my fifth dimensional stepping-stone “parallel reality.” Kepier’s reality is a parallel reality because it is occurring within the NOW and HERE of the ONE. Therefore, that expression of my Multidimensional SELF is running concurrently with my expression of Suzanne Lie on Earth. This issue of “it all is happening HERE and NOW” can only be understood from our Multidimensional Operating System. Thus, release you attachment to linear and time-bound thinking, so that you can better allow the concept of parallel worlds interacting within a vast Cosmic Sea of many frequencies.

If any of you have swam in the ocean, or any body of water, you know that while you are swimming you will go through patches of water that are much colder or warmer. You cannot not see why the temperatures are different, but you can feel the different temperatures with your body. It is this same way with the Cosmic Sea. As your consciousness/Lightbody Flows through the Cosmic Sea, different parallel realities intermingle, overlap and co-exist. You cannot see these different realities, but you can FEEL them, just as you can feel the different temperatures of water.

Hence, once we consciously swim this Cosmic Sea, which we often do “unconsciously” while we sleep, we may move through several different parallel realities within one experience of “swimming.” In consideration of the reader I will try to stay to one reality at a time. However, since I have no idea what Kepier will say, I cannot guarantee that you will not be confused. This is why I asked you to activate your Multidimensional Thinking. How do your do that? You just “let go” of your brain and “fall into” your consciousness!


Suzille: Dearest Kepier, I am ready to begin my communications with you. You said that you would tell me all that you know, and I am ready to listen with my opened heart and mind.

Kepier: Dear grounded one, I will begin by telling you a bit about myself and how I became to be known as a “hybrid.” When I say, “How I became,” which is my past, I am talking about your future. Hence, please release any thinking in time and perceive all reality as NOW. In the manner, I (your Future Self) and you (my Past Self) can become our ONE SELF NOW.

We will begin our timeless story where we left off with our meetings when you where a child. You know your story from that point, but you do not know mine. I have lived on a Starship my entire incarnation, which is not uncommon for Arcturians. We, as a society, have graduated from an earth-bound existence from before your measurement of time. We hold many expressions of reality within the Now, which I know can be confusing to our grounded ones. In fact, many Arcturians have expressions of SELF on planet Earth in your “time” era because Gaia is on the verge of ascension. We Arcturians specialize in assisting ascending ones, no matter what pre-ascension form they may have. In other words, we will assist whether it is a person, a species, a planet, solar system or quadrant of space.

Just as you and I are parallel realities, every grounded one on Earth has the parallel reality in which they are Gaia, the great Being the planet Earth. Yes, all grounded ones are the planet. Once a planet comes to the point of evolution in which the critical mass of Beings of that world realize that they are actually the planet, the planet is able to ascent. In other words, unity with the planet precedes ascension of the planet. The non-individuated beings of the planet, such as much of the elements of earth, air, fire, and water, as well as much of the flora, fauna have always perceived their expression of self to be ONE with the planet.

Yes, the elements, the plants and the animal all have perceptions, but they are so unlike your human perceptions that you cannot imagine their form of consciousness. As you all return to your true unity consciousness, you will understand what I am saying. In fact, please relax into the fact that you may not understand much of what I am saying. Just take it in and store in your Heart/Mind to be understood when you are ready. Your Heart/Mind is a term we use for consciousness.

I/we see that you must end our conversation now, but first I will lay down some ground rules. When I use the term “I,” I will do so for your sake to differentiate our Kepier expression from our Earth expression. However, we Arcturians no longer use personal pronouns, as we are ONE with each other and with all life. Therefore, when we speak generally, as we are doing now, we will return to the pronoun of we. We understand that the translation of Light Language into the linear language of our grounded ones can be quite confusing. However, we will maintain many of our expressions of Unity Consciousness by using the term “we” to acclimate you to living within the ONE

We, Kepier, look forward to our next communication. However, “next” is a time-bound term. To our experience, we are always within eternal communication and are joyous that you have “logged in” to that experience. We also wish to send our deepest blessing to all those who may read this communication. We want you to know that you are ALL of the same Heart/Mind, and we see every ONE of your Lightbodies brilliantly glowing and flowing through the Cosmic Sea.

Monday, February 14, 2011

unconditional love

February 11, 2011

I woke up in the morning feeling like I had not slept at all. I was depressed and felt like I was made of led. I could not remember my dreams, but they could not have been good. I knew that I had to meditate before I went to work or I would have a very bad day. I was surprised to see how easily I went into a deep trance, and began to feel like myself again. If you have been reading this blog, you know that I have been revisiting a deep connection with my fifth dimensional stepping-stone SELF. This connection began in 1993 and lasted until about 1997.

After that, the challenges of daily life took over. Then, I started writing my website, and I forgot about those messages. Of course, once I was aligned with that energy, those files in my computer jumped up at me, and I revisited that time of my early awakening. As I went deeper and deeper into my morning meditation, I recognized the feeling of Kepier (the aforementioned fifth dimensional expression of my SELF). The energy was extremely strong and filled my heart. I heard her say to me, “I will tell you everything I know.”

Before I had a chance to acclimate to that wonderful statement, I felt an even higher—much higher—frequency come into my Third Eye. It was so powerful that I could hardly breathe and had to calm myself to accept the energy into my form. To my surprise the energy said, “I will teach you how to ascend.”

I knew that I had to get ready for work and that I was way late, so I forced myself back to the physical world. I couldn’t shower or eat a descent meal, but I didn’t care. My energy had gone from dragging on the ground to soaring in the Heavens. On the way to work, my friend called me and told me that Mobarak had stepped down. I thought, of course, that amazing energy was the Flow of the Unity Consciousness of ascension. I floated through the day, which was long, and into the next work day.

I couldn’t find any time to write about this until now, three days later, but it has been constantly in my consciousness. I wish that I could say that I felt wonderful the entire time, but as usual, the extreme light flushed out old patterns of darkness/fear. It took me a while to understand how this amazing experience could have brought up so many ego issues.

As I am sure many of you have experienced how this high frequency light is revealing fear-based thoughts, emotions and behaviors that need to be released. I have been feeling my ambitious self (I am a Capricorn), and I have been my thinking going into comparison and competition. I have been catching these thoughts, but the force of this habit seems to be limitless. Of course, the Unity Consciousness of Oness would flush these fears of limitation to the surface. Yes, they are fears, I have discovered since my meditation. These are fear of not being “good enough.”

Since I was afraid that I was not good enough, I needed to be “better than.” I needed to prove to myself that I was good enough by having some kind of recognition or proof. But why? Why did I need that proof? Then, it came to me. If I really loved my self unconditionally, I would KNOW that, of course, I was Good Enough! When my consciousness resonates to the higher frequencies, I have that Knowing. But my ego, despite decades of work, still holds that fear.

My guess is that the complete transmutation of ego will only come when we are living completely within fifth dimensional consciousness. Whether or not it is possible to always maintain that state of consciousness while living in a physical vessel remains to be seen. In the meantime, I will continue to try to catch my fearful thoughts, emotions and behaviors and heal them with love. Most important, I will endeavor to remember to love myself unconditionally. I say “endeavor,” as I love myself unconditionally enough to know that I fail. I will fail to “catch myself” when I am tired, hungry or stressed out.

Now, knowing that, can I still love myself unconditionally?

Thursday, February 10, 2011



Dear Blog,

I had a dream this morning in which I had an abusive father and I had finally realized how he could no longer be tolerated. I had gone to a play with him and my brother, who had become completely shut down from the abuse of our father and I had to lead him around. My father did one simple thing that was the “last straw.” I realized that I had only been staying to help my brother, but in that moment I understood that he would not wake up from his mental prison. I had to leave. I excused myself to go to the bathroom, and woke up planning my escape.

I did not have an abusive father, but my brother is pretty shut down. I see this dream as a metaphor. The father represented the dominating systems of the third dimension, and the brother represented those who are asleep and may not awaken. The new energy that is sweeping through our world causing those who are oppressed to demand freedom is causing those who have found their freedom to be transformed. It is time for us to “make our escape” from the demands of a reality that was always a choice to experience.

In the dream, I realized that I had only stayed in that abusive environment to care for my brother. But, in that one moment I realized that the only way I could really help him would be to move on to my better life. Then I would have the power to come back and get him. That is what those who have found their freedom in the light need to do. We need to release our bondage to the old system, so that we can better embrace the new one.

As I pondered the dream after awoke, I remember (or created) that I had been preparing my escape from my old life and transition into my new life for a very long time. Therefore, everything was ready, and all I had to “do” was to take that first step towards my new life. In reality, this process is not about leaving a person, but about leaving the constrictive, and even abusive, confines, lies, manipulations and restriction of an old system of reality. This old system is ending, and it is up to us to create, and simultaneously accept, the new system that was always there—just beyond our perception.

What if we all woke up and realized that this reality isn’t real, and that there is a much better reality based on love and peace rather than fear and war? What if we directed NOT to participate in the old experience and to create a higher frequencies experience based on unconditional love? What is we no longer choose to believe that fear was a part of our reality?



I, Kepier, your expression of SELF on a parallel reality, am able to assist you from my vibration of the fifth dimension. First, however, allow me to explain the difference between “realities” and “dimensions”. Each reality of the many parallel realities has a vertical flow, which streams through all the dimensions. Each dimension also has a horizontal flow, which is specific to the frequency of that reality. Upon the third dimension, each of these parallel realities appear to be totally separate, as one of the main laws of the third dimension is the law of separation.

The law of separation was instated upon the conception of the third dimension to separate consciousness into small, single units. This reality was created because consciousness wished to slow itself down and to itemize itself into individual units for the purpose of training through experience. Therefore, one experience at a time was set up so that Consciousness could experience itself in an individualized, polarized, sequential fashion.

In your fifth dimensional reality, you are able to connect any of your parallel realities that you desire to experience. On the sixth dimension, you are able to simultaneously be aware of and consciously live multiple realities in many dimensions, galaxies, planets and “third dimensional times.” I know that this is a difficult concept for your physical brain, but think of it as multi-tasking. For example, imagine that you are doing dishes, eating an apple, talking on the phone, and talking to someone next to you while you look out the window, observing someone walking down the street. Now think of each of these “tasks” as a different reality, and you are living them all at once.

Also, one can experience dimensions in a lower vibration, but can only observe higher dimensions if they raise their consciousness to that frequency. Therefore, you can easily see the second and first dimension, but you have to raise your consciousness to perceive the fourth and fifth dimensions. Your process of ascension begins by raising your consciousness into the parallel realities of the higher dimension to accustom you to that frequency of reality.

When I say I am your expression of SELF on a parallel reality, I mean that I am living a life on a different page than you, but it in the same book. If you were to compare the book to the space-time continuum, you would say that the first pages are the past. Therefore, you feel as though you are remembering the pages you have read and you are creating the pages you have not yet read.

However, YOU are the creator of the entire book. This book is beyond the limits of space and time, and you are writing this book you with your every thought. With every thought and emotion you write and re-write the book of your myriad expressions of SELF. When you edit one expression of SELF, you change all the expressions of your SELF, for they are all ONE.

As another example, think of your “Book of Life” as having clear pages with images rather than words. These pages are overlays, much as you have seen on your anatomy books. From a horizontal viewpoint you only see one page, which would be only one of your myriad realities. On the other hand, from a vertical perspective you see all of your parallel realities existing within NOW. From this viewpoint you can see how all the “pages” interact and intermingle to create ONE book.

If you were to look down through the pages, you would have the perspective of your higher expressions of SELF looking into the lower frequencies of expression of your SELF. If you looked up into the book, you would have the experience of your third dimensional self looking up into your higher dimensional expressions of your SELF. However, since time and space is an illusion of the third dimension, the above terms of down and up are only used to clarify your image. In reality, all realities are functioning within the NOW of the ONE, and you perceive each parallel reality by adjusting your consciousness to a specific frequency.

In other words, when you change from one reality to another,

you are actually changing your consciousness!

(I conclude Kepier’s messages with another visit to the Starship.)



I am aboard the space craft Athena. I am Arcturian hybrid. I have returned to many of my Arcturian features, but I have also maintained some of my human characteristics to better maintain the timeline of our, yours and mine, consciousness. This is why I am called a hybrid. It is important at this time to keep in continuous contact as of my life as Sue Lie so that I/she can guide others in the same process. Therefore, I maintain many other human expressions of my SELF to continue this connection with my grounded ones and with Gaia.

Because of my many human expressions, I am known as a “hybrid.” However, I also have many dimensional expressions as an Arcturian, one expression on fifth dimensional Earth, as well as myriad other parallel realities. From sixth dimensional Arcturus I can easily be on the Starship, on fifth dimensional Earth, on our ascended planets and within the higher dimensions of the ONE.

When I chose to take the hybrid form of Kepier, my hands are Arcturian with four digits and long slim fingers, but my face looks human. However, my “hair” is actually made of many strands of light that arise from my “bald” scalp. I am the height of a human but the slim shape of an Arcturian. I have all the memories of my life as Suzille, as well as all the memories of my life as Kepier. The higher I choose to resonate my consciousness, the more of myriad realities I can perceive and experience within the NOW. I notice that as I write that it is difficult to talk about two realities at once while using the English language. Sequential language does not have within its structure the ability to speak of living multiple, dimensional realities in the same time frame.

I want you to know that I am speaking to you from the core of your being to remind you that you and I have always been ONE. I perceive that many new mind maps will need to be laid for you so that you, the third dimensional component of our SELF, can function on the physical world while the rest of your consciousness is working on the higher dimensions. Gradually, you shall become more and more aware of our life here aboard the starship Athena. Allow all my information to flow into your physical brain at its own rate. Do not try to force or inhibit the process.

Feel how your ego has been wounded through your third dimensional lives. That fear stuck to you through many incarnations, causing you to be cruel in one life, selfish in another life and shy, timid or aloof in other lives. Through our communications your wounded ego has been greatly healed. Therefore, see your ego as a friend. It is no longer an enemy or some thing that must be overcome.

Think of the ego as the Captain of your third dimensional vessel, and you are the Admiral. As the Admiral you have the authority to command the Captain, but you still trust your Captain and know that she can do her job well. As the Admiral you have many portions of your command with who you are in constant contact. Fortunately, you remember that the secret to being a good Admiral is to delegate. If you do not delegate the different responsibilities of life, you could not be an effective leader.

Commend your ego for all the good work that she has done in managing many VERY difficult situations. Tell her that you realize that her assignment has been difficult and that you are proud of how she has handled her mission. Finally, tell her that the entire chain of command is stepping up in rank. In preparation for this new format of reality, she will be given a new communication system. With this new system your ego will be able to be in constant contact with your parallel realities, as well as you/me, while she continues all her current responsibilities. This advanced communication will allow her to always KNOW that she is no longer alone, for she is NOW a member of the ONE.

Your SELF,




I don’t know if I fulfilled that assignment, as I forgot most of these past messages. However, I have found them very validating for that which I thought I was receiving in the present, but had actually began receiving in the early 1990’s. At that time it was far too soon to share this information. I guess that is why I forgot it. I am sure that all of us have had that experience to some extent. I hope that sharing this information with you will assist you to remember some of your forgotten some of your communications from the higher dimensions.

This entry concludes Part I of The Return. I will put it into a pdf file and post it with my free download books. I will return soon with Part II.

Monday, February 7, 2011




Dear Blog,

It appears that much of the time from August of 1996 until January of 1997 was spent on publishing my first book, Visions from Venus. I have not included those few messages, as they were mostly encouragement for my wounded ego. However, it was interesting to read them, as I am finally writing this book, the third book in that trilogy. Even with all the encouragement from Kepier, I was very frightened to reveal my SELF. I think I was just as afraid to reveal my SELF to me, as to others.

I don’t remember why our serious discussion took up again in January of 2007. In fact, as I look back at these messages I wonder how I could have forgotten any of them. Had I become so embroiled in survival that I had forgotten to live? I remember that the decade of the 90’s was one of difficult and life changing events. I write about my process of forgetting, or repressing, my multidimensional experiences to let you know that forgetting is more common than remembering. I, also, write my experiences to prod your memory to come forth with some of its secrets. One thing is for sure; the Truth will not come forward until we are ready to deal with it.

At that time, I was not prepared to deal with parallel realities in higher dimensions. Therefore, I wrote these experiences down and basically told no one. I was pretty sure I was a crazy, but I found such comfort from these messages that I wrote them down, typed them in the computer and placed them in easy to find files. Once that was done, I pretty much forgot about them. The present was ready and waiting for me until I was “mature” enough (in my Soul) to accept it. At that time, I wrote the below poem:


The small child very much wanted the

brightly wrapped present.

But somehow she felt she didn't deserve it.

Each time it was given to her

she retreated in shyness and lowered her eyes.

How could that lovely prize be hers?

How could she accept it?

“Just take it,” spoke a kindly voice.

“There are others who know more than you.

Even though you cannot see

all that has brought this to you point,

know that this gift is yours.”

The child did not understand.

But she trusted the kindly voice and

timidly reached for her prize.

But, as she touched it,

it disappeared.

“Where has it gone?”

cried the child.

“Why, it is yours now,”

said the voice.

“It is no longer something

that you must reach for.

It is something now,

which you must own.”



I wish to take you to your alternate realty in which you are a part of a beautiful and communicative community of like-minded thinkers and compassionate friends. In this reality, everyone is in constant and conscious communication with their parallel realities in the fourth and fifth dimensions. There is no competition because each person knows that they specialize in their portion of a puzzle that everyone in the community is working together to put together into one complete and stable reality. This community is not bound by time and space.

In preparation for this reality, Internet has allowed people from all over the world to communicate in one instant. You are being trained to communicate deeply with people that you cannot see and do not know of this reality. Through assisting people all over your planet it will become easier and easier for you to expand into planetary consciousness. Feel now all the like-minded grounded ones upon your planet.

Now, step into my perception so that you can see the Earth as a globe that is broadcast on our view screen. Feel yourself as me, as I take you to your/our room on board the Starship. This room is much like the rooms on Star Trek, The Next Generation. I/we are sitting on our favorite chair with the ottoman in front of me. The chair is, of course, violet in color, and the material is unknown in your reality. The chair and ottoman completely mold to my body and are attuned to my thoughts. Therefore, they are as hard or as soft as I desire.

From this chair I can control everything in my room via my thoughts. It is what you may call my “computer chair,” as it allows me to activate and use my computer with my thoughts. Therefore, when I meditate, such as you are doing now, I can interact with all my fifth dimensional environment realities. The process that you are now using of typing while you meditate is much like my use of this chair.

See our room. It is very pliable and can shape itself according to my desires. Right now, as I describe it to you, and as you see it in your minds eye, it is very large and has windows all along one side. This room is like a holodeck in that I can create whatever environment I wish. Sometimes I desire to have a Venusian environment, sometimes Arcturian and sometimes Earth or other planets for which I have a heart space.

As you look through the windows, you see a view of outer space. I also choose to have a vision of Earth and Her Moon in my window to keep my consciousness aligned with Gaia. Behind me I have created a huge redwood tree, a lovely path into the forest and a small, rippling brook. There are birds, a dog and many other creatures that are real on their own right, but only visit me when I choose this environment.

My room is modern in that it is simple with a table to the left and a desk to my right. In between is a row of couches along the window with a low table in front of them. There are many flowering plants. One of my favorite holo-programs is that of a greenhouse. I constantly return my plants to the greenhouse program to be regenerated so all of the plants in the room are healthy and flowering.

Now see Earth before us. See the many dots of light around the planet. These dots of light are the beings, human and non-human, who are in conscious contact with their higher vibrational selves. All of you are connected with each other in a beautiful web of light. Now, see how the fourth dimension is superimposed upon this picture creating a foggy overlay that all of you can visit in person. Also see the fifth dimensional overlay in which you have many parallel realities. You choose to connect each, or all, of the specs of light and/or your different dimensional realities by directing your thought and emotions towards that intention.

(After sleeping on that experience, I returned the next day for more.)



Dear Suzille,

I hear that you wish to continue to your vision of the light network of Earth. See the Earth before you with all of the beacons of light glimmering in the distance. Each of these specs of light is interconnected to all the other specs, and each line of connection ignites yet more specs of light. Just as I have created my hologram program to the specifications of your room, calibrate your hologram program to the specifications of mine. Imagine a reality in which you are the observer, Kepier, the observed, Suzille, and the process of observation.

Within this triad is the whole, just as the whole is within each and every other spec of light in this picture. Feel how your consciousness, Soul, essence, signature frequency (or whatever term by which you wish to identify yourself) has a slightly different perception of this hologram than the other “specs of light.” You are one of the many “Eyes of God,” as is everyone else. Each consciousness/light has a slightly differently view of the same reality. Together, each of these perspectives forms an orchestra that plays in harmony to create a beautiful melody.

It is your break now and each player within this orchestra is meeting in the fourth dimension to discuss their performance. From this fourth dimensional perspective, you are aware that the performance continues beyond time and space. However, you can also simultaneously observe your performance as being finished. Feel the camaraderie of your fellow musicians. Each of you is acknowledging the other’s part in the total symphony of life. Each of you is experimenting with a certain instrument while also performing upon the third dimensions space-time continuum.

Isn’t it wonderful to be free of all competition and caparison? Isn’t wonderful to be a component of a group consciousness while maintaining your own individual line both down into the lower dimensions and up into the higher dimensions? Take a moment now and follow that line into the fifth dimensional world of myself. See how we are continuous from the third dimension into the fourth and through the fourth into the fifth. Be aware that you have many other lines of reality, but because you are beginning with your conscious memory of these lines you are focusing on them one at a time.

These many lines of individual evolution are, in fact, only portions of the sum/total of all the lines of your Earth grounded experiences. However, it is recommended that you learn to fully understand one line of evolution before you attempt to perceive your sum/total. As you learn to move your conscious awareness into any one line of evolution you will find that it is actually a hologram. Therefore, through any one portion of your holographic reality, you can perceive all of your Earthly evolutions. When even one of you remembers your multidimensional nature, that memory is passed on to all of you.

Keep connected to me today. We are ONE.


Wednesday, February 2, 2011




Dear Blog,

Wow, the world is waking up at the speed of light. Freedom is the cry all over the world. Most important, this cry for Freedom is not based on fear and war, but on LOVE and PEACE! I think that now all the messages that we have received and forgotten are returning to our minds, or at least our actions, because the frequency of our consciousness is so much higher. Everywhere I read, the consensus is that the Dark Forces are on the run.

We know as Light Workers how the incoming light flushes up our own darkness, fear and poor behavior. And, we are loving “Service to Others” people. Can you image the darkness, fear and poor behavior that is coming up when the Dark Ones get the blast of Cosmic Light? I think that is why they are loosing their edge. They are off their game, and most of all, we the people are DONE with all the lies.

Also, the Galactics have returned to help. At first I thought, it is our mess, we should clean it up alone. Then, I came to realize that WE are Galactics in different timeline/parallel realities. At the very least, the Galactics are our ancestors, who also had their experience of incarnation on Gaia. They made many of the same mistakes that we have. Therefore, it is there duty, and their honor, to assist us, or at least assist Gaia as she was their “Mother Earth” long, long ago. As we are awakening, we are discovering more and more how we, too, are Galactics in a human costume.

I put the below messages up in the order that I received them to better share the process I went through with my fifth dimensional stepping-stone life, which I had totally forgotten. As you remember, the 1990’s were all about work, work, work, and I totally bought that farm. I am happy to remember now how the Galactics brought me enlightenment in the midst of my trudge through a very difficult decade for me.

I have never presented this information before as, before I could go forwards in my Mission, I had to go backwards to remember how I got to where I was. In the midst of that process, which was writing my website, several other books, finishing up my child rearing and releasing a job I hated to keep the one I loved with far less than half the income.

Most important, I needed to go “back in time” to create the “future” that was based on my SELF. But first, I had to find my SELF. Interestingly enough, when I went into my past to create a better future, I learned to live in the NOW of my Multidimensional SELF (at least, much of the “time”). My inner life had always been a place to hide. Before I could go forward I had to find the wounded me from the past and heal it. And, as every healer knows, if you want to heal yourself, heal others!



Dear Suzille,

I, Kepier, have a message for you. I have come into your meditation to congratulate you for day six of holding the Violet Light within your inner attention. You are developing your Arcturian inner eyes by this process. Do not be dismayed about your service. Please allow your inner vision to see me as I truly am. See that I am an Arcturian.

I am tall for an Arcturian, four feet, and I have four digits on my hands. My forehead is wide and my chin is pointed. My eyes are large and dark, and their color changes based on the atmosphere around me as well as the viewpoint of the one perceiving them. My eyes often turn into a dark purple, when I am using my inner eyes or my 360-degree vision. There is a tinge of gold radiance when I am telepathically communicating such as I am now.

Look into my eyes now Suzille and see yourself. You have come to this ship every evening of your six day violet light dedication. (I forgot that part too.) Last night you learned about the intense radiation on your planet and how the Men in Black and the other Service to Self ET’s have actually sprayed it at people who try to distribute a truth that they do not want released.

There are many diseases that are a direct result of this conscious and deliberate release of radiation by the dark forces. However, once your energy is fully enveloped in the Violet Light, you are vibrating above the effects of their campaign. Continue with your process. Do you see how important it is?

Suzille, know that I am you, and you are us. We are indeed upon the Athena Starship, and you/we are a councilor there. We have learned to consciously raise our vibration to the eighth dimension and can consistently vibrate to that resonance. We cal also meditate to become ONE with IlliaEm, our Elohim SELF in the tenth through twelfth frequencies of expression. We can also lower our frequency to the fifth dimension to better interact with humanity.

Remember who we are so that you do not judge your clay form. This form is greatly needed to ground our mission. You have been experiencing a feeling of urgency. Know that you can feel that urgency without stress. REMEMBER THAT TIME IS AN ILLUSION OF THE THIRD DIMENSION. Once you have fully raised your vibration to the fifth dimension and completely reunited with me/us you will be above the limitations of time. Once you have completely reunited with us, you will vibrate to Oness consciousness. Then, many group endeavors will naturally come into your sphere.

Merge your consciousness with me now so that I can take you on a journey through our Starship. Feel us walking around the ship and communicating with the many species that are now aboard it. Allow yourself to remember how you visited us/me each evening. See before you the transport elevator, which allows you to travel from one area to another.

(I think I remember that time. I was on a vacation I the mountains with my kids, my best friend and her son. I was so ill that I could hardly keep my eyes open. On the way to the vacation I had such a strong sensation of shaking, which I now know means that I am integrating a higher light into my body, that I had to pull over and let my friend drive. I then had chills and hot flashes. One night, like this night, I remembered a dream of being in a very unusual car. When I journaled to ask about the dream, I got this response.

This experience is an example of how our unconscious mind will keep from us that which our ego self is unable to integrate into daily life. I remember that when I was sleeping, which was more like hallucinating, I kept having images of doors slamming closed, steal gates slamming shut and windows closing. I remember at the time that one of my clients was on a “suicide watch,” and while I was away on this trip I was also call doctors, hospital etc. to get her some help.

This was no coincidence, as I had many suicidal thoughts when I was young. Since I was downloading a huge amount of higher frequency light, my own darkness of deep depression was being revealed. It was through my finding help for that “other” person that I was actually accepting help for myself from Kepier and the Arcturians.)

Release the old ego that says, “I am not good enough. I must be imagining this. I could not be this great being that of whom Kepier speaks.” Love that ego as you would love a small, insecure child. Your ego is the grounding force of your mission. Do not release it from your sphere. Instead, remember your ego is being redefined. It is vastly needed and greatly appreciated. See the ego as the hook on the long line of vibratory selves that we are. Your ego/self is the “hook” to grounds our Purpose into the body of Gaia.


Tuesday, February 1, 2011




Today is my 31st anniversary. I consider being married, and being happier now than ever, one of my greatest accomplishments. I remember that when I was a teenager I would lie on my back in my bedroom and talk to the ceiling. Actually, I was talking to the Being of Light that was overshadowing me. However, I had no concept of that and believed that I was talking to God or Jesus.

I recall how I would beg the Being of Light to find me love, so that it could fill the deep hole inside of me. It was during my adolescence that my childhood experiences of Unity with Beings of Light began to shut down. I needed to be like everyone else, so I blocked the part of me that was different, the part of me that filled me with love. It was then that I desperately sought love outside of me. I sorrowfully missed having someone to deeply love me, because I had forgotten how to love myself.

I had a few friends who could love me, but it was not enough, as they too were desperately seeking love outside of themselves. Having children was as close as I got to my finding that inner love, but even that was not enough. By the time I was 28, my first Saturn Return, I was deeply depressed. Shortly after that I found my first spiritual teacher, Mrs. Reed, and started the long, slow path back to my SELF. Fortunately, I learned to love myself enough to release a marriage filled with lies, so that I could better seek the Truth.

When I met the husband to whom I am now married, my emotions were a mix of terror and joy, but I was free! I had also learned enough about love to know when it was true. Neither one of us are “easy to live with,” but we have always truly loved each other. This love was the clearest when we were in nature together. We camped as much as possible, and in many remote places. It was on one of these camping trips that I first met Kepier. I remember drawing her picture, and then another picture, which was more androgynous. After that first meeting, I wandered off into the woods in the early mornings to write to her. Communicating with an “outside/above” version of me began my long journey to finding love within.

I first stepped on my Spiritual Path in the mid 1970’s, but I had no concept that I might meet a higher frequency expression of myself. In fact, I had no idea that there was even a possibility that I would have a higher frequency expression of myself. My first meeting with Kepier, whom, I did not identify as an expression of myself for many years, began a long process of finding my SELF and, most important of all, find the love within me. I first connected with Kepier before I had a computer, probably around 1992. Therefore, I cannot find my earliest communications with her, and I have looked. However, I have some of my earliest writings. I spoke about my self in third person as a way to distance myself from my emotions and experiences. Of course, I was “just writing a story.”



The morning came very early. Her mind danced and whirled through a myriad of options, decisions and responsibilities.

“It is your time now!” the inner voice had said.

The long awaited moment had come. For years and years she had prepared for this. For all of her life she had awaited it. But, now the waiting was over, the preparations were complete. Now, it was her time.

Had she prepared herself well enough? Was she stable enough to stand the weight and centered enough to not get lost? Could she ignore the outside pulls and guide herself solely from her own inner pilot?

These questions caused doubt, and the doubt caused confusion. She could not afford to be doubtful and confused at this time or she would surely loose her way. Moment by moment, step by step she had to carefully venture into the unknown.

Fortunately, she had worked for may, many years to recognize a certain quality of consciousness, an inner feeling that had become very familiar and comforting. If she could surround herself with this feeling, if she could maintain her consciousness at that vibration, she could feel safe. Then, she could enter the unknown surrounded by the known and not need to feel alone or afraid again.

If she could wrap herself in the essence of love and protection and radiate out that which she felt within, she could allow that light to guide her through the darkest places. If she could do this, she would be free of fear.

Without fear she would have peace. With peace she could remember to remember who she truly was. She could see through the veil of illusion and live in Truth. Then, the Truth could set her free.



There was a plan. She was sure of that. However, she wasn’t sure what it was. She knew that on some level she was well aware of this plan, but it was difficult for her to hold her consciousness at that vibration. The recent turn of events had frightened and excited her. For a long time she had awaited this moment, but now that she was here she wondered if she were strong enough to survive.

Yes, survival that was the questions. Was she surviving, fighting, experiencing creating or allowing? She had survived before. Moving through day after day in an numb or depressed way. Merely putting one foot in front of the other and hoping that the ground would be there to meet it. Now, she was determined to fight. She was no longer numb or depressed. She was terrified. As she fought to raise her consciousness, she found she could be more detached if she could experience life without taking it all so personally, without being in constant battle.

She gradually gained enough will power to be able to be an active member in the creation of her life. This concept of accepting responsibility for the creation of her life raised her consciousness greatly.

Now, she had come to the place where it was time for her to let go. She gradually released all the controls of her life that she had fought so hard to gain and handed them over to Spirit. Therefore, she was out of control, or in absolute control, depending entirely on where she held her consciousness.

As long as her free will was in harmony with the divine life she could feel herself in the Captains seat. However, when she lost connection with her Soul, she felt like a small child being led around by her mother. But, wonderfully enough, it was a happy, secure child being led by a loving, protective mother.

Therefore, when she needed to be a child, she could feel her Soul above her like a guardian angel, and when she wanted to be an adult, she could feel the radiation of her Soul from deep within the core of her essence.

However, things were beginning to happen now. Things that in the past would have depressed or frightened her, that now only reminded her to remember to stay at the top of the survival scale—above the pain. She had felt enough pain in this life, and she did not want to experience it anymore.

Sometimes she felt like a tightrope walker without a net. She would have to keep her concentration and her balance. Hence, she could not allow her emotions to take control of her, nor could she allow random thoughts to invade her mind and threaten her concentration. She had to stay within her center and keep her harmony.

Nothing could destroy her harmony, and she chose to harmonize her free will with the divine life. This divine life was beginning to unfold before and within her now. And as it did so, it would bring greater change. Could she remain master of herself and not allow these changes to frighten her? Could she remember to maintain her deep connection with her self and all that she had fought for, experienced, created and allowed?

She had to!! There was no other choice. To stop the process now would plunge her deeply into the jays of pain and set her back into the near death of survival.

She would keep on keeping on into the unknown. The trail was dim and led into the mists, but it was a golden radiation and felt of Soul. She would feel this radiation over, under, around and through her. She would feel this radiation within her heart and within her mind and express it with every word or action.

She was Soul. She was the Isness, Hereness and Nowness. Yes, right NOW she was here, within her Soul—for as long as she could maintain this frequency of her consciousness.