Monday, January 31, 2011

THE RETURN 1-31-11



Dear Blog,

I received some of these messages more than ten years ago, and they completely left my mundane memory. I send it you now in the hopes that it may jar your memory regarding some of your inter-dimensional memories. So much has happened in these ten years, it is no wonder that we have forgotten our multidimensional experiences. I was a rough decade, but the Multidimensional Light and Unconditional Love is shinning into our reality NOW!



Dear Kepier,

Yesterday we had a blending. I felt you reach into my heart. You were you, but your form was that of a ball. The ball of essence that was you connected into my heart, and I felt how you were an interface between the Arcturians and me. Then I heard myself say over and over, “I am Kepier.” Please comment. Is that how we integrated or will integrate or are integrating?

Dearest Suzille,

Feel me inside of you now. We are one being. I am here to contain your fifth dimensional vibration within your third dimensional form. I know that you do not feel differently. This is good. It is important that this integration is very gradual or your system would short circuit and you could no long maintain a third dimensional form. Feel me within you now. Yes, I am still aboard the Starship because I am a fifth dimensional being and easily bi-locate. In fact to state that correctly, we are a fifth dimensional being, and we can bi-locate. We are two in one and one in two.

Feel me always within you now. Remember that WE are on the ship. We are two now. As you show me more and more of you reality, I am can, also, show you more and more of my reality. Feel the Arcturians around us. Because I am a hybrid, I can be human within you and Arcturian within them. Therefore, I am a link that connects you and the Arcturians.



I have not remembered, yet, how I became a hybrid. I will share it with you when I do. However, I will now post some other important messages from my SELF, that I found when I went back even further. At the time of these writings, planetary ascension was not a concept that I have ever heard of in any form. Therefore, it was not mentioned. I tried to keep the message just as I received it. However, some terms were changed to fit into my more expanded inner vocabulary.

Messages from the higher dimensions come to us via Light Language, which I beyond words, time or space. We then have to translate these messages into our 3D Earth language. Our human brains are much like computers. If the appropriate information is not fed into the computer, it cannot understand and appropriately translate that message from computer language into human language. I edited only that which I saw as incorrect based on the information in my present computer/brain.

In 1994, I had no concept of a timeless reality. Therefore, my fifth dimensional SELF had to use time frames to assist me in understanding the message. My guess is, that since I had no concept of Star Time. This was before I had watched, and live, Star Trek, The Next Generation myriad times. In my opinion, this show was one of the first “reality shows.” Rodenberry channeled the entire show. Perhaps, he was in conscious contact with his Galactic Family. That version of reality was NOT available to most of us in 1994.



My Dear Suzanne,

I, Kepier, have a message for you from the year 2057. You are now translated into your Multidimensional SELF. In deed, you are you Infinite SELF. No longer are you alone, and for all infinity you are now within the ONE. Your unification took place completely while on a trip to the mountains in the summer of 1994.

(This is news to me. How could I forget that??)

Within this 2057 reality there is no time. We use the “time-marker” for the benefit of your third-dimensional, sequential thinking. From my reality all of these realities exist within the NOW of the ONE. You, meaning you and your Divine Complement as one being, are assisting souls in need of help. Time travel is as natural as getting into your car in 1994. You travel into the resonance of whatever time zone, dimension and/or reality of your client and assist them much as you do today.

Just as you can preview all the ages and stages of your life prior to your 1994 Earth reality, from my perspective you can look into all of your lives or realities on all times, planets, galaxies and dimensions. As you look into my/our reality of 3071, you see me meeting with Sue Lie of 1994 ET (third dimensional Earth Time). The designation is no longer before are after Christ, but rather the planet of residence. In 3071 AT (Arcturian Time), but (Again, time is only for your physical thinking), we are incarnated on Arcturus. (I think that this mean that I returned to my Arcturian SELF.) In this reality, you/we connected to the ONE. Hence, there is little need for documentation or written communication.

On Arcturus we live in a relatively formless state. Our home (another third dimensional concept) changes with our needs. We do a great deal of traveling to other planets and vibrations so we create a home that is appropriate for our location/resonance. When you asked to meet a Future Self, we were the most likely one as we are emissaries in this reality. We no longer title them lives as the term denotes a death or an unconscious discontinuation in consciousness.

There is not a need for a "death" on the higher dimensions, as we know that spirit is infinite and lives in the flow of spirit. It is difficult to explain this concept to our 1994 self, but if you can focus your consciousness on Soul it will be easier. We know that these concepts are difficult because in 1994, as you are not accustomed to functioning in the infinity or "no time" of the fifth dimension.

When there is no time, there is also no space. This means that you can be conscious and operational in all the different zones at once. However, you can only be aware of this from the perception of a reality that has transcended the boundaries of time and space. 1994 is a pivotal time for you/us, as it when we first could release ourselves from the belief of time and space.

To assist you in this new concept we will communicate with you whenever you wish. You will not be an interruption to us as our consciousness is of the fifth dimension and beyond in which we have multidimensional perception. Hence, we are not limited to perceiving only “one thing at a time.”

We are joyous that you recognized us.




Dear Suzanne,

We are Kepier. We are ONE. There is no time except in the physical, third dimensional world. Let us explain to you how this is so. The third dimension is a very constrained frequency. Its frequency envelope is very small. The fourth dimension has a wider frequency envelope and the fifth dimension is wider yet. (Actually, I now believe that the fifth dimension has NO envelope.)

As the frequencies increase in amplitude they also increase their range. This is opposite on the physical plane because of the harmonic resonance. One the physical plane, low frequencies, such as a foghorn are more stable and resonate longer and carry farther through space. This consistency of tone is because the resonant frequency of the foghorn is similar to that of the third dimension. Does that give you an idea how low the vibration for the physical plane is? (That is the third dimension of 1994. Earth has a much higher resonant frequency now.)

The foghorn can be heard from far away because it activates a resonant vibration in the perceiver. Low frequencies fit easily within the envelope of the third dimension whereas high frequencies do not. The constant buffeting of the high frequencies against the tight boundaries of the third dimension causes the high frequencies to decay and dampen quickly once it has left its source. Furthermore, within the third dimension, lower frequencies mask out higher frequencies. Therefore, the lower vibration perceptions, hearing, vision and kinesthetic, are more easily accessible in the third dimension than you expanded, psychic, perceptions.

One can learn to raise their consciousness, or raise their resonant frequency (brain wave pattern) to have greater access to higher perceptions. We, Kepier, resonate at a higher frequency, as we exist in the fifth dimension and above. Before, you were able to directly perceive us, you will need to raise your consciousness to the fifth dimension. Even now, you need to write our message and are unable to directly see us.

Before you expanded your consciousness into the fifth dimension, you only perceived our archetypal forms that are well know and accepted to your third dimensional reality. Your present reality has embraced the concept of Ascended Masters, also called Saints, Angels, and even Archangels and Elohim. These great Beings volunteered to lower their innate frequency to be perceptible to you physical world. When you were born, you did not sacrifice your fourth dimensional perception. This knowledge of the fourth dimension caused you a sense of isolation and loneliness, but you had promised to remember your higher dimensional Home. You did very well.

However, you could not perceive us because we are citizens of another planet, Arcturus, and you had too much fear about that. Do you remember the horror movies of your childhood: The Blob, X the Unknown, and the Angry Red Planet. The indoctrination of the 1950's closed your mind to us. We have been waiting for you and your entire generation to recover from that brainwashing.

Now that your consciousness is clear of these fears you will be able to perceive us more and more directly. Do not worry that you do not see us with your lower perception. It is not our destiny to lower our vibration, but rather your destiny to raise yours. Use us as a beacon of light to help keep you anchored in the higher planes. Remember your Home, as is a constant reality. Once one can break through the perceived barrier of the lower planes where time and space limit your thinking, you will begin to fully understand Infinity.

Within the smaller envelope of the third dimension there is much decay. The lower vibration such as mineral kingdom do not buffet against the walls of the third dimensional envelope. Therefore, there is less decay and the element lasts longer. Flowers are of a very high spiritual vibration as they are the regenerative force of the planet. Therefore, flowers do not last a long time, as they are quickly buffeted against the walls of the third dimensional frequency envelope.

This decay of the original vibration is actually the source of time and space as well as the source of aging. Aging is the decay of the resonant frequency of the physical body as it progresses through time while buffeting against the limits of the frequency envelope. Also, as your physical form progresses through time and space, it is moving away from the source of the birth frequency.

This is as is should be because the physical plane is a schoolroom which we attend and graduate from. That graduation is death. Some take only a few classes and die young while others take many classes and live to be old. Some expand their consciousness to higher vibrations as a process of integrating and taking responsibility for all the karma that that they have collected, and some get stuck in a difficult class and cease to grow.

Unfortunately, some see themselves as victims. They take no responsibility for their life and often blame their problems on others. In this case, they actually go backwards, which is they devolve rather evolve. Some even fall into a very low vibration, become selfish and try to take from others what they are unable to create for themselves. These lost ones try to take life, love or power from others, usually to steal their possessions. They do not know that these things cannot be stolen, as they are a birthright. On the higher planes, possessions have not importance at all.

On the higher planes, we all can quickly manifest anything we need with our spiritual\creative force. Since we can always create it, we release it back to first cause when we are done with it. There is no need to "possess" it as we can never loose it. Since we cannot loose it, we do not need to want it. It simply is!

The process of graduation, transcending, (I had no concept of possible ascension at that time.) is one of learning to raise above the envelope of the third dimension vibration and to consciously reside within the higher dimension. Your soul home, that which you have labeled your “Home” is the base reality from which you can travel to all other realities. It is your launching pad for inter-dimensional travel.

Carry your Home constantly in your heart and mind, and it will remind you to keep a conscious awareness in and of the fifth dimension's finer vibrations.

Remember us, for we are YOU.


Sunday, January 30, 2011

THE RETURN 1-30-11

Dear Blog,

After my last entry, I found this writing from three years ago. I share this message because I know that it applies to you, as well. I had completely forgotten this message, as well as the other ones I will now release that I got from Kepier, my stepping-stone fifth dimensional SELF, between 1994 and 1998. I am sure that you have many forgotten messages from your fifth dimensional expression of SELF. Perhaps, my messages will jar your memory to reconnect with your forgotten communications with SELF.


Dear Future SELF,

I woke up this morning with a message from you. Can you please give it to me and again, as well as expand upon its meaning.

My dearest Grounded ONE,

I will happily retell you my morning message. I was saying to you:

I am your future SELF, because I AM your infinite SELF. Therefore, I am not bound by the time that rules, or has ruled, your physical reality. I awoke you this morning so that you could remember what I have been telling you during your visit Home into the ONE of our fifth-dimensional reality. You are an awakener. It is your Purpose to first awaken to the infinite nature of our true multidimensional SELF so that you may share what you have discovered with others. Dearest Suzille, after 61 years of experience, learning, introspection and healing you are ready to share your message with the world at large. You will share your message with love, unconditional love.

When you were a child you still knew the great power of your imagination. You innately knew that imagination is fifth-dimensional thought. Using your imagination you began a lifetime of healing by connecting with your alternate realities and your Spirit Guides, some of who were your own higher dimensional SELF. These communications set you apart from many, as they gave you a truth that could not be shared without ridicule and judgment. Hence, you locked your greater world in the realms of your inner life and tried to behave like a "normal" person. Hence, your real wounding began as your hid your true nature and all your wonderful gifts so that you could fit-in to a reality which was filled with doubt and fear.

Gone from your daily life were the wonders of your Spirit World, and worse yet, as your "matured" into a teenager, these wonders disappeared from your conscious mind. It was only in times of great sorrow and fear and when you were deeply upset that you to unlock that secret door to find the unconditional love and acceptance that you so craved in your mundane world. However, your innate expanded perceptions were relegated to your dream reality, where no one else could taint them with their superstition and ridicule. It has taken you this long to be confident enough in your SELF that you can begin to share your expanded nature with others.

Why do the awakened feel they need to hide from those who still live in the fears and illusions of the third-dimensional reality? Because they, too, are so afraid that cannot truly surrender all control of their physical reality to their Soul. Fortunately, as one-by-one, the awakened ones stand tall in their expanded perceptions the tide of fear and devolution is gradually turning toward love and evolution. As each one openly shares with the world their innate instincts, empathy, telepathy, clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, telekinesis and illuminating communications with the ONE, they make the world safer for others to “come out” from their hiding to openly BE their true multidimensional SELF.

As always, the first way showers will receive the most flack, but their courage will pave a way for others to follow. And follow they will, for only our greater SELF will be able to face the challenges that lie ahead. Remember, my dear Grounded ONE, what is impossible for your ego is simple for your Soul.

I will return to communicate with you more, for in fact, I have never left—how could I. I am YOU!


I AM your Present and Future SELF

I also include this 2001 communication in this entry.



Please tell me more about how you are my future self.


I am pleased to explain to you how my transition was accomplished. However, there is the time line to be considered. If I tell you too much about my past then I will be telling you too much about your future. Therefore, there are certain “collective facts” that I may not be able to share with you. Of course, time travel is far more common than the general public is allowed to know. Because of this, there are many dispensations that have been released to allow for the fact that many of the Lightworkers are beginning to merge with their future, fifth dimensional selves.

I say future fifth dimensional self because we all have many fifth dimensional selves. However, there is only one future self that we each will merge with at the time of ascension. In your case Suzille it is myself, Kepier. I will begin my answer to your question with a brief explanation of how my past and your future are interlinked. What I am about to say may seem impossible, but it is the reason for your fatigue. Yes you are doing too much, but you are doing less than you have done in the past when were less fatigued over.

During your process of our merging you must allow yourself much love and forgiveness for any uncomfortable or unusual feelings you may be having. When you finally share these messages, you will find that there are others who are undergoing the same process. They will find comfort in your story as you will find comfort in theirs.

(I would LOVE to have any of you on the blog to share your experiences!)

Now for my story:

I will begin with my childhood. The future Earth that I came from is quite different than you can imagine. This is one of the things that I cannot share with you yet. However, I do have permission to tell you about my personal story—our personal story. I will tell it in first person:

One morning I awoke very early before the suns were up. We live to be much older than in your time and age does not mean much, but I would say that I was an early adolescent. My body was changing and so was my consciousness. I had been having a reoccurring dream in which I was playing with another girl about my age. I felt very close to her and her to me.

She had shared with me that, although I could remember my dreams of us, she could not. She shared that in her world, people did not believe that we had other parts of our selves. The force of this Collective Consciousness was too much for her to battle, and she already felt like she was too different from everyone else. Therefore, she was unable believe that our joint dream could be real.

In my world, on the other hand, it was a common event to mind travel to other realities, times, and to visit with other portions of our total SELF. I had done so since I was quite young. This young girl, however, felt very different. She felt closer to me than anyone I had ever met in my mind journeys. She said her name was Sue, and I told her that I was known as Kep. I also had a masculine side of myself that I could present, but that frightened Sue. She could only be close to me when I displayed myself as feminine—so that is what I did.

For many years, we met in the dimensions between us—the fourth dimension. She lived in the third dimension and I lived in the fifth. Our favorite place to meet was in Faerie. In fact, it took a very long time for her to learn to raise her vibration above that plane. However, when we first met she was in the lower Astral. I was mind traveling in Faerie when I heard a distant cry. It was a cry so filled with terror that it caught my attention. Usually, I would not have had any awareness of the Lower Astral Plane, and I was told never to go there. Yet, this cry was so familiar that I could not resist investigating it.

I surrounded myself with the Violet Light so that I would be protected from the low vibrations of that place and left a trail of Light connecting me to my Faerie self so that I would not become lost. Down, down I went into the dark lands of the Lower Astral. I could not see too much through my Violet cocoon, but I could hear cries of agony all around me. On and on I traveled, following the cries of the familiar voice. At last I came to what appeared as a jail. We no longer had jails in my home, but I had seen pictures of them at our learning post.

On the other side of the jail was a small girl who was crying and screaming because a big monster was trying to get her. I entered the jail cell with her and filled it with Violet Light. It took a while for the girl to realize that the Violet Light was around her because she was curled up in a ball with her eyes closed. Finally, she stopped crying and saw that she was enclosed in a violet cocoon. It was then that she realized that someone was in the cocoon with her. She looked at me as if she too recognized me and said,

“Who are you? You don’t feel like a monster. In fact, you feel familiar.”

“Yes, I answered your call because it felt familiar to me, as well. Do we know each other?”


(I guess I had to sleep on the above information before I could continue.)

“I don’t remember,” answered the little girl as she stood up and faced me. “Hey, where is the monster? That is a need trick with the light. Is that what made the monster go away? Can you teach me how to do that?”

“Hey wait,” I stopped her. “You are asking too many questions. How can I answer them all? No, I can answer them all, but not with words. Would you like to go with me? I have a wonderful reality that I visit all the time.”

“Are you asleep too?”

“No, and neither are you. They just tell you that you are asleep when you are mind traveling so that you won’t forget that you are human now.”

“Yeh,” she frowned. “They tell me a lot of things so that I won’t forget that I am human, but I still don’t feel like it. I mean—I know that I am a person, but I am not like them. I don’t believe in their world, and they don’t believe in mine.”

“Well, I believe in your world, and I believe in you. My name is Kep. What is yours?”

“I don’t remember. I know that I have a name down there, but I forget it when I come up here. Also, sometimes I forget who I am up here when I am down there.”

“In my time frame, the adults teach us how to mind travel so that we don’t get confused or forget.”

“In your time?”

“Well, I am not really sure who you are. I will have to ask my teacher. However, I think that you may be a part of myself from an earlier time period. When are you from?”

The child looked confused. “I don’t know. I don’t know what my name is down there, or what time period it is. I only know that I am a kid, and I don’t like being a kid. I also know that I have a lot of scary feelings down there that I can’t talk about. Then, when I come up here the feelings turn to monsters, and I can’t get to Faerie.”

“Faerie—that is where I want to take you. Here take my hand,” I say as I reach out towards her. “I will show you a way that NO monsters know about. Maybe someone in Faerie knows your name.”

The child happily reaches out to take my hand. All of her questions were gone as soon as she knew she was going to Faerie. I wonder why I had not seen her there before.”

Thursday, January 27, 2011

THE RETURN 1-27-11



I see the ascending on in her bed writing this note. She is trying to open her mind to my capacity, but is physically tired. I tell her now that she can best do that in her night body. I will greet her in her dream state and remind her that WE are ONE.


Human SELF

Before I went to bed last night I thought that I heard a message from expression of my SELF that was, well, it was Infinite. It was energy beyond what I had ever felt before. It is not that it was more “evolved” than the Arcturians or the other Galactics because at that frequency of reality “more” has no meaning. There is always, in fact infinitely, enough. This Infinite Expression of my SELF was less personal than the Arcturians, but personal is not really the correct word. It is a struggle to describe these limitless concepts to English. Therefore, I guess I will say that this Infinite SELF was new to my experience.

To continue, the message that I received was that this Infinite Being would visit me in my dream state. I went to sleep enthusiastic to remember a great dream. I had several dreams, waking up after each one, which is common, but nothing was exceptional. When I finally gave it up and got out of bed at about 5:30 a.m. I was disappointed. I did my usual routine of getting my tea and going into my meditation room. I lit the candles, put on some music and did some reading while I drank my tea. I tried to meditate, but I couldn’t settle into it.

Finally, I decided that I still had time to walk along the beach and meditate there. I always get great messages by the ocean. I walked fast for a while to get the exercise then sat on big rock just at the edge of the small waves. I went instantly into a meditation and was surprised to find myself “inside” of my fifth dimensional stepping stone life, the very me with whom I had such trouble connecting.

First I was walking around the starship doing normal errands. Then it was time to tend to my duties. I was, of course, a counselor. However, no one came into my office. Instead, I communicate with others via consciousness. First I communicated with those still on Earth. When I did this I created my room to look like I was in the woods with greenery all around, a small stream and a few animals. Being in this environment allowed me to more deeply connect with those who were living on the body of Gaia.

When I went to talk to other Galactics, I created my room to look just like their environment. In this manner, I could bond fully with those to whom I spoke. Furthermore, they could see my creation and know that I cared enough to create a comfortable space for them. However, our communication was all via consciousness. When my “work/service” was over, at the time that we would sleep on Earth, I was ready to commune with the higher expressions of my Self. The need for sleep is very minimal in that reality.

It was then that I connected with the Infinite; in fact it was the Infinite Expression of my SELF. I cannot begin to put that experience into words, as the communication was beyond words, sounds or even images. It was the reception of Awareness, of Consciousness beyond limit. At that point I realized why I had not had that dream. My fourth dimensional night body could not embrace the experience of communion with the Infinite, nor could my third dimensional self remember it.

However, when I consciously experienced being IN my fifth dimensional SELF while communing with the Infinite, my human SELF realized what had happened. I think that the reason why I could finally experience “being” my fifth dimensional SELF this morning was because of my communion with the Infinite the night before. This communication could only be remembered when I was inside of my fifth dimensional SELF and free of the limitations of my third and fourth dimensional expression.

I half awakened from the meditation, remembering how my fifth dimensional body felt, and slowly opened my eyes to see the gentle ocean waves flowing back and forth across the sand. I understood then how the Infinite Flows through all dimensions, taking on a different Expression of Being in each frequency.

I knew that I would have to get ready for work and leave as soon as I got home. I did not want to forget the experience so I touched my Third Eye and “opened a file” for the meditation. I then saved it as Meditation 1-27-11 to the location of my Third Eye. I also told a friend while I was driving to work to help me remember my experience.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

THE RETURN 1-26-11

I am happy that she had the blog to talk to. For most of her life she has hidden her true SELF from others. Therefore, to a large extent, her SELF was hidden from herself, as well. Now, when she shares her process with others, she needs to recognize them enough to write them down and publish them for others to see. The publishing forces her to see her humanness and use it as a means to help others. 
But these “others” that she speaks to are unseen, except within her consciousness. At first, she thought that it was all right to be herself on the Internet because she didn’t use her real name. Then, after a very long amount of her time, she was able to use her real name. But, still, the “others” were unknown, except for their emails and phone calls. This was a very important lesson for her. Because as she was communicating with other human expressions of her SELF via consciousness, she was learning to communicate with “other” higher dimensional expressions of SELF. 
However, these communications were still with “others.” Now she is realizing that EVERY expression of Life is ONE with ALL Life. Soon, she will be able to be at ONE with us, her Infinite Expression of SELF. 
Human Expression of SELF
Dear Blog,
If you read my newsletter this month and/or the previous segments of The Return, you know that I have been in the process of “trying” to commune fully with my fifth dimensional “stepping-stone” self. We all have myriad fifth dimensional expressions of our SELF, which can be very confusing to a new fifth-dimensional returnee. Therefore, we made a pre-birth contact with one of these expressions (remember that one has a very different meaning in the fifth dimension) to serve as our Contact Person.
Just as we may have made a deal to have someone waiting for us at the off ramp at the fifth dimension with a card with our name on it held high for us to see, this stepping-stone SELF, is our guide for our return to the fifth dimension. This connection, made from the perception of the third dimension is not easy deal, because ALL of our human expressions have to agree to make this return. Therefore, we need to go into the deepest cellars of our unconscious and see if anyone is afraid to make this journey. 
The problem is that we cannot see this frightened one, as it learned to hide from others and from our self. We know that the frightened one is there, though, because something is standing in our way. Since all of the process occurs within our own consciousness, the only in our way could be a lower frequency expression of our SELF that needs to be healed.

I had an interesting experience that frightened on when I was making the Radio Show yesterday that airs this Friday. It was a bad technology day and I am NO expert at Garage Band. My assistant was not available and I couldn’t get a clear message. There was static through most of the message. In the first part of the message I was speaking from my physical expression, getting angry and impatient at “that machine.” Then, I would need to take a break and get centered so that I could try again. I made two attempts, and they both had static.

Finally, I erased them in frustration, although interested by what I had said and erased. On the third try I had to just go with it and let was happened to just happen. Still static!! Got frustrated, cursed the computer etc. Than it was time to communicate via my Arcturian expression of SELF. Wow, what a difference. The machine still had static, but I was totally calm about it and accepted the situation.

However, I didn’t even see the difference between these two expression of my SELF until the end of the day when I was finally relaxing. I had many revelations that are now parked in a higher frequency of consciousness that I am using at this time. However, I did want to share this experience. We always have such potential, but we get caught up in time and space, I had a deadline to meet, and functions off of one third of our true potential.

Will I remember this lesson next time I get upset? I guess the real question is, will I ask the inner frightened one why she was so upset?

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Sunday, January 23, 2011

Denise LaFay Symptoms of Ascension

This information is from Denise LeFay, but i wanted to share it with you,
Ascension Symptoms
Denise LeFay, Transitions, May 11, 2009,
Some of these ascension symptoms are ones I’ve lived with for many years now and have gotten familiar with how they cycle in and out, year after year, becoming less intense the more I transmuted and released. As I’ve said elsewhere over the past few years, your mileage may vary, because we each are dealing with and transmuting slightly different emotional energies, karmic/polarized energies, past life energies, and varying degrees of lower negative vibrating energies across time on earth. Some of us have been processing not only our own stuff and junk from this life, but ALL of them, and also doing transformational bloodline family work, and also planetary clearing of specific lower stuck (dark or negative) energies done by people across time on this planet. That is what “Lightworkers” do, and more.
• ascension flu— flu-like body aches and pains but you don’t get “sick” like with typical physical flu
• abnormal heat and/or cold in certain body parts, severe heat in bottoms of feet, cold solar plexus etc
• hot flashes/kundalini risings repeatedly for both sexes
• unusual headaches that just don’t go away until they are done doing what they’re doing
• physical vision changes – blurring, seeing non-physical mist or fog , seeing new colors, lights, heat mirages, warps, vortex swirls
• physical hearing changes – inner ear clicking, pressure like when you change altitude, hearing non-physical voices and strange sounds
• low-grade fever, chills, body and bone pains, aches and exhaustion when there’s heavy solar and/or cosmic energies
• sudden food and chemical sensitivities that make it nearly impossible to eat a lot of foods or go much of anywhere
• insomnia and/or only being able to sleep for an hour or two and then waking up repeatedly throughout the night
• drastically less dreaming (because you’re dealing with issues/energies 24/7/365 We’re transmuting while awake too)
• sudden diarrhea (usually after you’ve been through a hard phase of transmuting lower energies and then shifting into a higher state)
• sudden nausea or “morning sickness” for both sexes
• weird food cravings, repeated high protein cravings (due to increased transmuting of energies), need for a lot of food fuel
• severely increased sense of smell, smelling strange smells for days, weeks or months even (like burning incense or smoke)
• sense that your bones are not as dense and solid as they were in lower 3D, they now feel more like cartilage that can bend etc.
• profound exhaustion, feeling profound exhaustion and physical pains and aches after having been out in the lower world for a couple of hours, feel better once you return to your higher vibrating home/land/space etc.
• internal electrical-like vibrations or buzzing of the “rewiring” process
• super sensitivity to sounds, light, sunlight, even movement, dizziness, sense of spinning or tipping over or dropping through the floor
• crying over simple things that profoundly move you, crying over the stupidity, crying because you feel SO much (this is 5D Heart Consciousness beginning)
• rage and deep anger over the stupidity, anger/rage/frustration over everything and everyone still in a lower energy and state of awareness. They’re literally too painful physically and emotionally to be around or to endure now
• sudden and total intolerance of anything, anyone, any system, religion, government, foods, belief systems etc. Intolerance of anything vibrating lower than you currently are.
• sense of being very alone and on your own with no one else around you who understands what’s really happening to reality and you
• needing to be alone and isolated from other people
• ultra sensitive emotionally – like puberty/pregnancy/menopause all happening at the same time!
• emotionally knowing and feeling things in other people that you never could perceive prior
• family issues and “stuff” that must be dealt with within yourself and your bodies
• total emotional disconnect with things and people you used to love and enjoy very much
• feeling like you are changing so profoundly that you’re actually dying (you are and it’s part of this process)
• sudden loss of mental focus and ability to concentrate
• sudden inability to read books due to inability to focus, concentrate, or even comprehend what you’re trying to read!
• forgetting the names of common everyday things, objects, places, people etc. – like “milk”, “hammer”, “orange”, etc.
• forgetting your own name and/or sense of old familiar “you” or “self”
• having to triple check things because you can’t remember if you actually did them or just thought about doing it
• loosing track of “time”, loosing track of yourself withing “time”, suddenly not knowing what time of the year it is or even what year it is!
• thinking and physically doing things become very blurred to your awareness, feeling disconnected from things like never before
• disconnect with the ego self that was mentally multitasking constantly, inability to focus and so you relax and unfocus finally
• seeing, hearing, feeling, sensing nonphysical beings both positive and negative, perceiving strange unknown energies and lights
• hearing nonphysical voices call your name
• seeing different colored lights, balls, points of brilliant light, flash and roll around in your house and/or outside also
• seeing solid 3D objects (like walls etc) suddenly look like a heat mirage, sparkle, shimmer with brilliant light and appear transparent
• seeing, hearing, and even telepathy with both “positive” and “negative” beings, entities, perceiving areas of condensed negative energy
• negative psychic attacks by other lower vibrating living humans, and/or negative non-physical energies, beings etc. (deal with it and move on. It’s someones unresolved negative shit looking for a new place to live; transmute it and release it all and move on)
• working through polarity resolution, repeated encounters with polarized energies, polarized consciousness, etc.
• seeing, hearing, feeling, smelling, sensing higher positive non-physical beings, guides, ETs, Angelics, other Lightworkers, other New Earth Angels, etc.
• increasing conscious connection and awareness with your Higher Self – spherical or “triality consciousness” instead of the old 3D polarized and linear consciousness
• increasing but HIGHER empathy, telepathy, clairvoyance, greater and greater unity within your self and with other people that are vibrating at or near the same frequency and state of ascension that you are, 5D awareness or Heart consciousness
• coming under negative psychic attacks occasionally from both human and nonhuman energies, thankfully decreasing in potency over the months and years
• stages of dreamless sleeping, stages of numerous unpleasant nightmares each night for weeks at a time. This usually happens when we’re making yet another shift and need to process some more stuff and energies within ourselves.
Denise Le Fay

Connecting to Stepping-Stone 5D SELF

Dear blog I had a dream last night in which I had a new skill that I didn't know that I had and that, in fact, I had always thought that I was bad at. I don't remember the details of the dream but it woke me up to make sure that I would remember it. When I woke up with the thought that something new was coming into my life. Something that I had always thought was impossible. I wonder what it will be.

This wondering what this new skill might be lingered at the edge of my mind throughout my busy day as I talked to my clients and friends. All day I was wondering what is this new thing might be. I have to admit at this point I don't have a clue. However, this feeling is similar to expecting something in the mail. When I buy things by catalogue, I wonder when it will come. I know that one day I walk up the stairs to come to my home and there will be my package. Then, I get to open it, see if it is like it and if it fits. It is something to look forward to.

For those of you that get my newsletter and have read the newest January issue and listened to the meditations, know that we closed the polarities of masculine and feminine to find that portal in-between. We then connect with our unconditional love to find our fifth-dimensional stepping stone life. I'm wondering if maybe my connecting with my stepping stone life is part of that new thing that I'm going to do. Maybe this new thing that I'm going to do will be from the perspective of that fifth dimensional expression of my SELF?

I had time at work, so I listened to the meditations on my iPhone. The fifth dimension stepping-stone “me” that I met on the Starship Athena. That me was tall and thin with a bald with a head shaped head somewhat like Akhenaten’s. That me, who I have always called Kepier, appeared to be taller than me. However, it may have been that I just felt smaller next to this Being. I think I stepped into it (the Being was androgynous), but I'm not sure. The thought that has been hovering is that I could not do, I could not step into that me. Why? Why, when I had to chance to do what I have always wished t do, did I choose to linger? Why have I waited to make that step that I have wanted for so many years?

I went home, relaxed at bit, went to bed and got up early to go back to work. In other words, the third dimension took over. I worked all day, and by my last hour, I was so very, very tired. Somehow I drove home and went right to bed. It was only 5:00 pm. I had a dream/meditation, as I was half awake and half asleep, in which I went back to stand in front of my stepping stone life, Kepier. I tried to let go, I tried to step into that me, but something was in the way. Finally, I fainted from the effort and awoke to find my self on a table in the medical area. Kepier was standing lovingly at my feet while several others worked over me. It felt like they were raising my resonance.

Third dimension struck again, as we had a dinner engagement that I needed to attend. I thought of my dream/meditation while we drove then. Then, back to the third dimension again. Eating dinner, talking with friends etc. etc. I was able to get to bed by 10:30, read a bit about becoming Lightbody, then I was off to sleep. I awoke at 5:30 am with a dream I had to write down.

I will summarize the dream, then write the entire answer from the Arcturians. In the dream I was in a building that was the foundation of some Guru. I was being judged as not being good enough to go to the next level. The person who judged me was kind and felt bad, but I just was not good enough. I was devastated and wandered around trying to find my way home. There were several tall stairways, one without stairs. The first one I found I could not climb, even after I let go of all the “stuff” I was carrying. The other one was too frightening to even try. The dream ended with my long, long walk home. The Arcturian’s interpretation was:

Our dearest Suzille,
First off, we know you can see the issue of judgment, failure, shame and disappointment. These are third dimensional concepts that need to be released in order to ascend. You felt very diminished by the judgment of one outside of yourself and the entire group shunned you by not being good enough. You were a failure.

The result was that you were ashamed and isolated yourself. At the same time, you did not believe their assessment, but you still responded as if you did believe it. The tall climbs, the first one in which you had to “drop all the stuff” you were carrying around, is pretty evident. The other tall stairway, which was far away and far too difficult to climb, was another symbol of you inability to get “Home.”

You woke up late enough so that you could rise from bed and process the feelings that this dream brought up. These are feelings that haunted you when you were young and that you thought you had cleared. However, you are at the point of fine-tuning in your ascension process now. You are also daring to consciously connect, become one, with your fifth dimensional SELF on our Starship.

The young women in your dream that judged you, was of course a younger version of yourself in which you judged yourself so often. That you was trying to be nice to yourself, like the one in the dream was trying to be nice to you, but neither expression of your self believed that you were good enough. In order for you to take this next step in your Homecoming, which is to fully connecting with your fifth dimensional counterpart, you will need to release many portions of your third dimensional expression that cannot accept that honor.

You will need to release all thoughts of how others perceive you, as you are marching to a very different drum than most of those around you. Furthermore, ALL judgment and the resulting shame and sadness will need to be released. The way Home may seem like a steep climb and a long walk, but that is only true if you forget that you are already there. You have NEVER left! Just as you awoke from your dream, you can now awake from your illusion. You do not have to be good enough to gain what you have always had and who you have ALWAYS been.

Sunday, January 16, 2011



As I see the final wisps of the infant’s consciousness return to the body of my newest human self, I notice that the form of light that I am wearing disappears. Now, I am a speck of light, a center of aware consciousness. My formless state seems to pull me back into the Arcturian Corridor, which I now recognize as a kind of Home for me. My journey is calm and peaceful, and as I travel through this Corridor, memories of myriad third and fourth dimensional lives swirl about me.
I am aware that the ONE is summoning me. Feelings of unconditional love and visions of multidimensional light surround and comforted me like a warm blanket. I can feel my formless state become lighter and lighter as my frequency rises. Slowly this “blanket” of light and love pulls me into a deep sleep. I know that I will awaken as a new expression of my SELF; hence, I relax into the process…


I awaken to find that my body is an adult. I see myself not as completely in that body, but overshadowing it and serving as the Spirit Guide to that female human. I see that she is asleep; therefore, I can easily expand a portion of my being into her form and enter her dreams. To my surprise, I find that she is dreaming of one of my fifth dimensional expressions in which I am aboard the Arcturian Starship Athena. For a brief moment, my multidimensional consciousness must adjust to my Earth expression dreaming of one of our myriad fifth dimensional realities.
As I integrate my multidimensional perception into the neural patterning of the grounded one whom I have just entered, I can perceive three realities occurring within the same moment of the NOW. There is the reality of my Primary Multidimensional Consciousness who experiences and overshadows many formed expressions of my SELF, the reality of my sleeping human self and the reality of that human’s dream, our life upon the Starship Athena.
Maintaining constant connection with my true, multidimensional SELF within the ONE, I simultaneously focus on my sleeping human form as well as my Starship reality. As I do so, I become aware that this particular reality will be the stepping-stone reality into which my grounded one, known as Suzille, will step into at her moment of ascension. Suzille has dreamed of this reality many times, but she has usually forgotten when she awoke. I understand that the homesickness of remembering that life is the reason why these dreams are forgotten.
I see that she is on the cusp of ascension, yet the final three ninths of any journey are filled with all the challenges that been left until the last moment. I see that this “last moment” has become her NOW. I also see that she suffers from the many remaining conflicts between her ego and her soul. Fortunately, within this moment, she is at peace in the comfort of that which she has missed since birth.
The experiences of success or failure of her present competitive reality are easily forgotten on the Starship where everyone works in completely unity with each other and with the organically based Starship. I feel the unconditional love and companionship that is so difficult to “achieve” in her current reality of 2011 Earth. Simultaneously, I can perceive how we, the collective consciousness of Starship Athena, are overshadowing Earth reality, just as I am overshadowing Suzille.
She is awakening to her Earth life now. She has slept too long and must rush off to work without taking her “time” to get grounded and centered in her SELF. It will be a difficult day for her.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

A quick note

Greetings to everyone.
I have not written much in the blog lately as i am working on some changes on the site. But i have been thinking of you. It is interesting how we can connect consciousness to consciousness. And now we are connecting to the group consciousness, especially the group consciousness of those who are in the process of awakening. It is important, i think, that we talk to each other, even if it is "just in our consciousness." Soon, communicating via consciousness will be the primary means of communication.

We are all being prepared for this transition via all the internet, email, texting, blogs videos and websites. We have found a kind of anonymity through this kind of communication. However, at the same time we are communicating consciousness to consciousness. This kind of communication puts our focus on our message instead of on the listener. In fact, often we don't even know who the listener/reader is. Therefore, or old fear of judgment is diminished, which allows our creativity more freedom.

Of course, I am speaking for my self, as for many years i didn't even use my real name. Being the message more than the one delivering the message allowed me to find my true voice. My creativity had been greatly stifled as a child and i had no confidence. However, i had learned that my inner voice was seldom wrong. Therefore, when i heard an inner direction, i tried to always follow it. Nonetheless, i went through great drama when i first put up my site. I had no one to edit it and no money to pay for it. My good friends stuck with me though through some silly ideas of ways to make money in order to support the site.

None of those ideas manifested, but the site taught me more than i could ever teach others. Writing the site taught me, most of all, that there were a whole lot of people just as far out as i was. Maybe i wasn't crazy after all. Then, the site took off on its own journey and i was just the scribe. I couldn't wait to read what i had written, as it came through a higher frequency of my self than my daily self knew. Gradually, i grew into that SELF and far beyond my greatest expectation.

I don't mean to say that i became this amazing person. More important than that, i became a happy person. Happiness is a state of consciousness, so as my consciousness expanded i became more and more happy. Of course, i am not always happy. Life strikes, as they say. But where before my main self was stressed out, frightened and seeking, now my main self is calmer, more loving and finding.

I think--I hope--that 2011 will be a very big year. Everyone that i read, who is about everyone, all say that this is the year where we are laying down the foundation for our new life. We will also experience the massive chaos that precedes massive change, but haven't we always had chaos? I think the most important thing is that we stay above fear and choose love--choose to DO what we love -- choose to BE with those we love--and choose to love our SELF-unconditionally. That is a tall order, but i KNOW we are strong enough to do it.

So happy 2011 to you all!
See you in the fifth dimension.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Radio Shows

This Friday, Jan. 14th at 9pm PST, join Sue for her new show, the
Arcturian Ascension Process on BBS Radio!

Sue will be discussing multidimensional relationships with her guest, Nicki Vee. Join us LIVE or listen to the archives by visiting:

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Join us for two hours of live mini readings and spiritual talk.
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Wednesday, January 5, 2011



Dear Arcturians,

I have been hearing a message just inside my mind, or is it my heart? I am asking you now to assist me in recovering this message. I have been communicating with an ascending being who has told me much of his process, which is much like mine. We are very different people, but our process is very similar. It has been wonderful for me to be able to talk without any editing of my presentation so that I don’t confuse, frighten or confuse the listener. I know that I need to do more of that in order to close the gap between the “me” that writes this not and the “ME” to whom I write—The Arcturian Group Mind.

I am ready to ascend now! I am ready to be my full multidimensional expression of SELF. I am ready to close the gap between who I call to and who is calling. Please assist me now to better understand this process…

Our dearest Suzille,
We/you have already closed that gap, it is just a matter of re-calibrating your perceptions to be able to consciously experience ALL the frequencies of reality between the third/fourth dimension and our eighth/tenth dimensions. Once you have experienced the realities beyond the seventh, the return to the fifth will be natural. It is time now for us to take you (that is you and all your readers) into the sixth and seventh dimension.

In the sixth dimension, we will assist you to go into the Divine Blueprint of your earth vessel to clear the accumulated dross energy patterns since the fall of Atlantis. While you are there, you will also take the quantum leap into the reality in which Atlantis and Lemuria completed their cycle in a loving and peaceful manner. It was the violence of the closing of their cycle that has resonated in you world since then.

You know that there are myriad parallel realities at all times. Hence, there is a reality in which the peaceful transition of Atlantis and Lemuria occurred. Because Gaia wanted to ascend along with her people, she asked for volunteers to experience the extreme polarity of your present reality. She knew that it would be very difficult for those volunteers, but the ones who survived would do so because they became strong enough to participate in a planetary ascension.

You, the survivors, both incarnated and in the higher planes, are gathering together now to assist Gaia with Her ascension. However, your must completely release all records of darkness. The darkness that made you strong must now be purged to allow you to be even stronger. In other words, your teacher, the darkness, must now become your pupil so that you can close the perceptual gap between the third/fourth dimensions and the higher worlds.

We speak to you Suzille, and to all those who share this journey with you. The Return has begun!

Monday, January 3, 2011


THE RETURN is actually the third book in a trilogy. In the first book was VISIONS FROM VENUS, wrote about my first visit to Earth at the fall of Atlantis. I then strung together several of my past/alternate realities into the tale of my trying to find and reconnect with my Divine Complement, Lamire in the second book, RECONSTRUCTING REALITY. The third book has always been planned to tell a story of my connection with my Divine Complement and our ascension into the fifth dimension.

At the time that I wrote the second book, I was sure I would quickly move onto the third. However, I came to learn that writing about planetary ascension was very difficult when I had no idea how it would happen. Even now, I can only guess. However, something happened today that told me it was time to start writing this journey, as I was about to start experiencing it.

In case you wonder, I did meet my Divine Complement and it was more work than I could ever imagine. Try being with someone who is the mirror image of you, only “through the glass darkly.” In other words, to maintain the bliss that you both felt instantly upon meeting, you will have to face your own dark side again and again and again and again… Is it worth it?? Of course!!

Before I begin with number three of the trilogy, I wish to tell my readers that I have always been well aware of my alternate realities, misnamed as “past lives.” There are not “past lives,” because time is a third dimensional illusion. Instead, these lives are parallel realities that are occurring in a different frequency of time and space. Did they actually happen? Yes, in fact, they are happening NOW.

My inner instruction has told me to share this journey via my blog. The ascension process is happening right NOW, so there is no “time” to wait for the books completion. In fact, I have no idea when the completion will occur, and I have no idea what I will write. All I know is that we ALL need to share our ascension process with everyone that will listen.

For millennia, those of the light have had to hide their true SELF and not tell anyone for fear of their life. Therefore, we must face that fear of many lifetimes and use our ever-expanding light to share our process of ascension in the way that works best for each of us. In this manner, we take the secret of ascension out of closet and make it normal.

None of us really know what we are doing. Therefore, we need to keep connected to our own Multidimensional SELF and discuss our process with others. We don’t know how to do this, as we haven’t created it yet. Since we are choosing to ascend an entire planet, we need to be united with our SELF, others and our planet.


I woke up tired again. It seemed like the more I sleep, the more tired I am. Is it becoming a habit to sleep so much, or is the habit about being in the fourth dimension and beyond? I like my life, I really do. It is just that it is changing so fast, or is it not changing fast enough. I have so many expectations about what will happen, which is likely a place to hide my fear. I feel I do NOT need drama and challenge to learn any longer, and I think that there are many others who no longer need the harshness of third dimensional challenges. Nor do we need a catastrophic event to get our attention.

I don’t know if it is possible or not, but I am holding the intension of a peaceful transition into the fifth dimension. There are many who are still asleep, and they may need some good old-fashioned drama to make them take a long look at themselves. On the other hand, there are many people like us, who have been looking at themselves for decades. In fact, many of them are now seeing the faint image of their Lightbody. That is the reality that I want to create. I want to create the reality where people wake up like blooming flowers--one petal at a time. We don’t need to question if it is our time to awaken, for if we have it is. If we have not awakened, then it is not our time, but it will come soon.

I am pretty good as releasing fear and living in the Flow of the ONE, a lot of the time. That is when I am not too tired, hungry, sick, busy, stressed out or driving in traffic—oh yes, or worrying about money. I get worried or upset, then, finally, I realize that all I can do is just relax into the process, as there is NO rulebook. Fortunately, there is my (and our) connection with the higher planes. This connection is the lifeline from my SELF to my self.

I do know that a major part of my ascension process, and maybe it is for everyone, is that I close the gap between my Multidimensional Arcturian (among other realities) SELF and my earthbound human self. Therefore, I will ask higher expression of me (usually it will be the Arcturians) questions. The first question I want to ask is about my meditation today in which I was told that I was ready for a conscious experience of being on a Star Ship. I looked around inside to find any fear, but couldn’t. Therefore, I will ask for a bit more information now.

Dear Arcturians,
What am I to do to have a conscious experience of being on a Star Ship? Am I wanting it too much?

ARCTURIANS: Wanting means that you do not realize you already have it. Not only do you visit the Starship, you live there. However, you have not yet fully connected with that expression of your SELF. You will soon. Then your conscious experiences of being on the ship will begin. You will begin by remembering, not the Ship, but the YOU that lives on it. Once you remember that reality, you will have your first stepping-stone into your fifth dimensional reality.

Everyone has a stepping-stone life, which is the expression that they will "step into" at ascension. Soon everyone will begin to remember this stepping-stone reality, as well as other realities in their dreams and meditations. However, the secret is not remembering everything. The secret is that everything you remember is REAL! By that statement we mean that everything that you imagine you create. Therefore, if you think about it, you create it.

It is this final stage of ascension into the fifth dimension that is so problematic because you must BE the Master of your Thoughts and Emotions. If your every thought and emotion were broadcast over your head for all to see, you would become a Master very quickly. In other words, welcome to life in the fifth dimension, for in that expression of your SELF, your every thought and emotion will instantly manifest. Because of this, it is vital that you become gain Mastery over your fears.

The two vital tools to gain master over fear is INFORMATION and UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Furthermore, if the information you receive does not "feel" like unconditional love, then discard it and look for a higher frequency source. Fortunately, unconditional love is not only the antidote to fear, it is also that firewall that keep fear from penetrating your consciousness. If you suspect fear, do not "look" with your Solar Plexus, as it will accept lower frequency information into the sacred temple of your earth vessel.

Instead, we ask that you recognize the feel of fear with your lower chakras, but look at the energy patterns of that information with your Opened Third Eye. Fear cannot not penetrate your Third Eye, therefore you will not be harmed by the perception of it. Rather, you can use your Third Eye to transfer the message to your High Heart. Your Hight Heart will then send unconditional love into that message, emotion and/or thought-form. The unconditional love will protect you and heal the fear. Yes, fear can be healed for it is a creation, a human creation. Begin to think of your every thought and emotion as your own human creation.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Years Message from SOUL


EGO: I seem to be losing control of too many parts of my life. Over and over, I have to say to myself, “Well, there doesn’t appear to be anything I can do. I guess I just have to “let go” and see what happens. I must admit though, I am a bit scared.

Supposedly, there are other jobs for me to do, other assignments and such, but I feel really out of the loop. This new “system” of reality has such different rules that I feel like a fish out of water. I hope the new Captain knows what’s up, ‘cause I sure don’t!

SOUL: You do not need to understand because I KNOW. I AM your Soul; I know all of all. You see, I AM liberated from the 3D Game, while at the same time I AM still playing it through you, my Grounding Point.

EGO: Well, if you know so much, then tell me what my part is now? I am used to being in charge of everything, well at least everything in my conscious mind. No, that isn’t exactly correct either. OK, I am used to being in charge of every part of the consensus reality of which I am conscious. I guess that isn’t actually too much.

SOUL: Yes, dear ego, I am aware of your great contribution and sacrifice.

EGO: Sacrifice! What sacrifice?

SOUL: Your sacrifice was that you split off from the ONE; you diminished your awareness to embrace only one small, separate lifetime, on one small, separate planet. You turned OFF your awareness of SELF so that you could participate in a great experiment.

EGO: Experiment? What experiment did I participate in? I don’t remember splitting off from my SELF. In fact, I have always been myself…except...except that there has always been another presence, a Guide, or God or something, someone. I called it by many names. The names changed as I changed. I mean, I was the same person, but my awareness changed.

SOUL: Yes, your awareness changed as you became more conscious of ME—your Multidimensional SELF. Even thought you “split off” from me, I have never left you. How could I, for I AM you? I AM the Presence that you have always felt, but you could not believe that you could hold such Power, Wisdom and Unconditional Love. Therefore, you projected these feelings onto “other” Guides, Angels, and Masters.

Because you split off into the realm of separation and limitation, you were separate from ME, your Soul/SELF. I AM the “YOU” who lives in Constant Unity with your Guides, Angels and Masters. In fact, I AM your Guide, I AM an Angel, I AM an Ascended Master, and much, much more.

At the same time, I AM the “YOU” who is free of the 3D hierarchical systems that are separated into polarities of bad—better—best. In my reality, the true reality, there is No separation, there are NO polarities. Hence, there is NO hierarchy! We are all ONE.

EGO: I don’t understand how that can be. How can there be no separation, no polarity? If there is no hierarchy, then how do you learn from those who know more than you? Whom do you worship?

SOUL: There is no “learning” in my reality. There is only “KNOWING.” There is no worship, for no one is better, or worse. There can be no “better than” if we are all ONE. Therefore, we don’t “worship.” We KNOW. We LOVE. We appreciate and assist our fragments, such as YOU, who have split off from us to enter the great experiment of life in a polarized, lower dimensional reality.

Many of us have fragments of our SELF who live as lower dimensional life forms in different worlds and realities. To us, all these “grounded expressions” are the same. Hence, a “person” is no more significant than a “tree” or a “fish.” Since WE are all ONE, we view ALL life as ONE.

EGO: Now you are telling me that I am no better than a fish? I don’t think I can believe that. A fish doesn’t “do” anything but swim and get eaten by bigger fish, or by people. What good do they do?

SOUL: You don’t understand what I am saying. Here, there is no “doing.” There is no “eating,” there is no polarity of “good” or “bad.”

EGO: That sounds boring to me!

Soul: Yes it would sound boring to a 3D person who is trying to “do good,” especially when you are separate from me, your Soul. But, just as you cannot conceive of UNITY, KNOWING and BEING, I could not understand separation, doing and boring. That is why I split off a portion of my SELF off to enter into the experiment of life on the third dimension.

You have taught me much, and I wish to thank you. I also wish to bring you Home, into ME, your true SELF. That is why I have been recalibrating your earth vessel, chakra by chakra, so that I could integrate my Essence into yours. You see, then, we will no longer be separate. We will be ONE again.

EGO: Does that mean that you have left your reality?

SOUL: Oh no, my dear Grounding Point. There is no “leaving” in my reality. How can you “leave” when there is no “separation?” If there is only Unity, how can you leave Unity?

EGO: You are confusing me. I don’t understand this Unity thing that you speak of. It sounds nice. In fact, it feels much like the feeling I have had inside all my life, the feeling that I have worshipped. But I don’t understand how I, the separated one, can move into a reality that is so different from any reality that I have ever known, or even studied?


EGO: Create it? How can I create something I don’t understand? This “creation” you speak of is beyond my ability to even conceive.

SOUL: You Surrender to me—your SELF. You fall into the FLOW of Unity that I AM You are the one who has to make the decision for us to reunite, as you live in a reality of Free Will. The rules that we agreed to before our “Fragment” logged onto the 3D Game, was that we can NEVER pull out, log out, of the Game until our Grounded One asks us.

We agreed that we would wait until our Fragment Awakened enough to remember its Multidimensional SELF and to seek our assistance. Then, when they were ready, we would guide our Fragments Home. That was the experiment: “Would a Being who separates from the Unity of All That Is, ever desire to return?”

EGO: Well, this has been a long experiment, millions of years, in fact!

SOUL: It has not been long to us, as we do not have “years.” In fact, we don’t have “time.” We live in the NOW. When you live in the NOW, you will have no regrets from the past, or fears of the future. When you remember how to live in the NOW, you will be able to find the FLOW into which you may Surrender to me, your Soul/SELF. Once you are reconnected to me, you will return Home.

EGO: How do you know that I want to surrender into this Flow? How do you know that I want to go Home?

SOUL: Because, dear portion of my SELF, you are choosing to integrate ME into your Earth Vessel. You see, Home is NOT a place; it is a vibration. Thus, as you integrate ME, you do not GO Home. You BECOME Home!

I wanted to add this poem i just found that i wrote long ago.


The Flow is like a river
It is wide and it is narrow
It soars just like an eagle
And is gentle as a sparrow

The dawn across its waters
Glistens in the Sun
And everyone we’ve ever known
We find within its ONE

A part of us may not accept
The world our Flow will make
And can’t release the Core-Belief,
Old fashioned “GIVE ‘n TAKE”

But we cannot Give within the Flow
For no one there will Take
Instead we know, within that Flow
Our LIFE is what WE Make

The part of us that wants and gives
Is still outside the Flow
While the ONE inside is doing fine
And has no need to Know

This is the ONE we’ve always known
And sometimes can’t allow
The SELF we truly want to BE
But can’t remember how

Sometimes the Flow is easy
And pulls us to its heart
Sometimes the Flow is far away
A place where hope can start

If we could just surrender
Our woes into the Flow
We’d find that ONE we’ve always been
And allow that SELF to show

And when we can remember
To Fall into the Flow
We’ll follow it into its Heart,
To watch our True SELF grow

Then we’ll plant our growing SELF
Deep into Mother Earth
So the life we MAKE inside
Can blossom in Re-Birth

Then the Flow we once believed
Was outside our reality
Will be WITHIN us once again
This “time” for ALL finality