Tuesday, May 17, 2011

10 Phases of Ascension

Clearly, the initiation of which I have been speeking was one in which I would have to stay in my body. This was not an initiation in which I was able to leave, to fly off into another dimension or into my world of imagination. This initiation was about staying within my physical form, which is a component other physical form of our dear mother Gaia, even though staying with in this form was extremely uncomfortable.

Before my surgery, my Initiation, I had to merge with my fear. I had to become my fear until I could love it free. Then, after my surgery, Final Initiation, I had to merge with my pain. I had to allow the physical pain to reveal all the psychotically and emotional pain that I had felt through out this lifetime. There was a LOT of pain.

Within the 24 hours preceding my surgery, somehow I have learned to manage my fear. When I went into the preparation for the surgery I had no fear. When they rolled me down the hall to the surgery room I had no fear. When I entered the surgery room and was put onto the table I had no fear, and when anesthesiologist came into the room two first quote make me unconscious” I had no fear. I had no fear not because I meditated or because I was spiritual. I had no fear because I fully surrendered to the circumstances and refused to contemplate being afraid.

The management of my pain was an ongoing process of realizing the deep connection between physical and psychic pain. I also recognized how my persistent reactionary behaviors created psychic pain and fear. It was my need to control my environment in order to control my anxiety that came into my immediate attention. I could not control anything. I could do very little for myself and was dependent on others for almost everything.

Therefore, my need to control them interfered with my need to get their assistance. Of course, I am only talking about very close friends and family members, as they were the only people I saw. I found that, when I surrendered to the time schedules and choices of others, I could more easily surrender to my pain. I could not control my environment, but I could surrender to it. Through this process I could more easily surrender (relax into) my pain.

In the third day after the surgery, (when the pain was much less) I was drawn to go and pull some Runes. Runes are an ancient Celtic means of divination. The first Rune that I pulled was a Rune representing “Stand Still.” It said, “You may find yourself entangled in a situation in which you can only submit, surrender, even sacrifice some long cherished desire. This Rune represents “A gestation for rebirth.”

The next rune I pulled represented “Constraint, Necessity, and Pain.” This Rune said, "Identify your shadow areas where growth was stunted resulting in the weakness which we project onto others.” This Rune represents “The rectification that comes before progress.”

The third Rune I pulled represented “Signals.” This Rune said, “When you nourish and give to yourself, there is always enough to nourish others.” This Rune represents “Connection with the divine is at hand.”

These Runes had given me the exact information that I needed at that time to give me the courage to “stay the course.” I had not drawn Runes in a very long time, but because I listened to my inner guidance I received information that was vital for me to continue my journey. I say this to remind my self, as well as others, to listen to the voice within for it is the true voice of our SELF

After reading the Runes, it came into my awareness about:


1) Downloading the multidimensional light and unconditional love that is entering us through our Crown and settling in to our opened Third Eye and High Heart.

2) Loving that light and love so much that we can allow it to travel into the hidden darkness and fear of our deepest subconscious self.

3) Allowing the multidimensional light to reveal this fear to our conscious self and using the unconditional love to heal and set it free.

4) Through the process of revealing and healing our fear with light and love, we learn unconditional love and detached compassion for our physical body, reality, experiences and persistent reactionary patterns (behaviors) that we formerly identified as our self.

5) As we integrate the multidimensional light, unconditional love and detached compassion into our consciousness and our physical body, we begin the activation of our Lightbody.

6) With the activation of our Lightbody we began to emanate multidimensional light and unconditional love from the core of our self and out through our Third Eye and High Heart. It is the emanation of this higher expression of our SELF that begins the opening of our Ascension Portal. This portal acts much like a compass to guide us on our process of returning to the Multidimensional Being of light that we have always been. This open Portal allows us more intimate communication and communing with the higher frequencies of reality.

7) At this point we must SURRENDER to whatever happens. It is this surrender that allows us to begin our Final Initiation. With in this Final Initiation we will take one sweep into our deepest subconscious to love free any and every fearful thought, emotion, memory and behavior that has impeded our complete connection with our Multidimensional SELF.

8) We NOW Know that everything is Perfect.

9) With the acceptance that ALL is perfect, we can embrace the innocence and purity of our Divine Child, the part of us that has never forgotten our SELF. With in this purity and innocence, we can actively await the New Dawn with an Open Heart.

10) LET GO!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Matthew Ward newest message

DNA manipulation; Osama bin Laden deception; Mother’s Day

1. With loving greetings from all souls at this station, this is Matthew. So long ago as to be incalculable in linear time, humankind’s cellular make-up was crystalline and had as many as 24 DNA strands. Through the ages the dark ones manipulated that genetic make-up in some populations by reducing the light within cells until they were carbon and had only two strands of DNA. The dark ones succeeded in producing civilizations with weakened immune systems susceptible to all kinds of diseases, a greatly shortened lifespan, total loss of spiritual clarity, and severely limited brain capacity. That vast diminishment in health, longevity, spiritual awareness and intelligence has long been the lot of people in third density worlds.

2. All of this is known to souls living in spirit, so why would any choose to be born into a third density civilization time and time and time again? They do so because in other incarnations they succumbed to rather than surmounted the rampant fear, ignorance, deception and warring that are the cornerstones of dark control. Each time they choose to complete third density karmic lessons in roles agreed upon with all others who want to share the lifetime so all can achieve balanced experiencing and start back up the ladder spiritually and intellectually. Each time the souls are convinced that this time in personage they will retain the light with which all infants come.

3. However, time and again their determination to successfully maneuver through a world where darkness flourishes became mired in the actuality of living in those low density conditions. Thus for millennia Earth’s residents unwittingly have been captives of the lies perpetrated and perpetuated by on-planet puppets of the dark forces. Always a few persons did heed messages from soul level and spoke the truth, but their voices were cut short or their information was distorted, and deception and the massive negativity issued from it continued to reign.

4. About seven decades past in your timing, Earth cried out for help to end that destructive cycle. In response, the highest universal council created the master plan for her transition out of third density and the return to fifth, where Earth’s soul originated and remained even as the accumulating negativity caused her body to spiral downward. The plan included the joint efforts of evolved beings from other civilizations with selected persons on Earth and a timetable for the planet to be out of third density, the end of your year 2012. Even though time—which in reality is the prevailing energy frequency—is passing more quickly by the day, Earth’s timely arrival at the threshold of what was named her Golden Age is certain.

5. This is not the case for her residents who still are inured to believing and acting in accordance with whatever is told them repeatedly by “authorities.” The numbers of those who are light-receptive are increasing; however, through ignorance of truths, many others are still “in the dark.” In her love for all of her residents, Earth wants every one to accompany her into fourth density, but to do so, they must accept the light that will enable their physical survival in the higher frequencies that the planet is fast approaching.

6. On and off-planet members in the vanguard of the light forces, who know that a great deal must be accomplished rapidly, agreed that it must begin with the emergence of truths so the peoples will demand the changes that have been formulated to achieve a transformed and peaceful world. The members agreed that no time can be wasted in disclosing the truths that the Illuminati have kept hidden by assassinating knowledgeable persons or ridiculing them into professional oblivion and labeling anyone who believes them a “conspiracy theorist.”

7. The members also agreed that something dramatic was required to get the peoples’ attention; however, because it isyour world, it was up to your leaders to decide what that would be. Announcing that members of other civilizations are among you required resolving myriad details before it could be properly presented, and the suggestion that all truths be told straightforwardly was vetoed because there was no agreement as to which should be revealed first—in essence, which finger should be pulled out of the dike. Some felt that would best be achieved by announcing the death of Osama bin Laden, the officially accused mastermind of “9/11.” They felt that announcement could be veered into exposing the truth about the horrific events of that day almost ten years ago, and it would eliminate fear in the people who believe what they so often have been told: No one is safe as long as bin Laden is alive.

8. Only when that suggestion was raised did some in the group, including US President Obama, know for certain that the man had been dead for almost a decade, and those few vehemently denounced the suggestion. But since no one had any other idea that would get the attention of the world, the majority voted to “kill bin Laden” and later publicly explain why that story was released.

9. It can be argued that deception to achieve a positive goal is “better” than deception to embark upon a negative goal. It is not our desire or our purpose to judge the decision, much less judge those who made it, but only to relate the information given us by Earth’s monitors in Nirvana. They do not know how the explanation for the decision will come because the responsible parties are still discussing strategies for the next steps.

10. Regardless of how this plays out, by the end of next year, the light will have vanquished all darkness on Earth—this has been assured from the beginning of her ascension. You can best serve in your capacity as lightworkers by neither condoning nor condemning the bin Laden story, but rather by adding your light to its intention—to speed disclosure of all truths so reforms also can come swiftly. And for those leaders who know the greater urgency, the intention is for all persons to have the opportunity to embrace the light within truth before it is too late for them to physically go along with Earth if they chose that journey in their soul contracts.

11. Today is Mother’s Day in many countries around your world. We join you in honoring these souls who agreed to accept the most demanding of lifelong responsibilities.

12. The love of all light beings throughout this universe is reinforcing your light, and many of God’s emissaries are walking with you side by side.



Suzanne Ward

Saturday, May 7, 2011

May 5, 2011

Now that I am feeling so much better I am putting all my experiences into a sequential form, although, these events actually exist within the no-time of the ONE. I left off with writing THE RETURN PART II when I was in the Restoration Chamber on board the Starship Athena. Something happened in that Chamber that began a chain of events, which I would like to share. At the request of the Arcturians I have shared my process of awakening from the very beginning in my site. Therefore, I shall continue to share my experiences of, what I have come to realize, Ascension.

Written on March 19, 2011

Once we know where we are going,

We know what we have to do in order to get there.

I was beginning to live in the two realities of by stepping stone SELF and my third dimensional self. I was going to work, writing up new information for the website, probing into my deep subconscious and living on the fifth dimensional Starship as Kepier. I was NOT taking care of my physical, Earth vessel. I was not exercising. I was not going to the gym, and I was eating far too much sugar. I was in my head and in my consciousness. That is, I was in my super-conscious and my deep sub-conscious, but I was NOT in my earth body.

In other words, it was the perfect transiting Pluto conjunction with Sun and Mars experience, which were my astrological aspects at that time and still are. When Pluto first conjuncted my Sun, I began to channel the Arcturians through my voice. This experience expanded my consciousness further than I had ever experienced. However the superconscious—subconscious roller coaster of Pluto had begun. When I first channeled in the Arcturians through my voice, it initiated a conscious awareness of my higher dimensional self beyond anything I had ever experienced. However, shortly after that I plummeted down into my deepest subconscious to release the old habits of depression that needed to be leave in order for me to continue on this higher path.

The ascension path is a higher dimensional experience beyond our highest expectations. First, we have seemingly random experiences of Being Lightbody. Then, we must go down deep into our subconscious in order to release that which has always stood in our way of living in that state of consciousness. However, I have digressed from my story, so I shall now return. Even though I was very much in my head and subconscious at that time, I was also in my heart. I was talking to many interesting and ascending people and doing a lot of creative writing, meditations and videos. I was also taking care of paying the bills, balancing the checkbook, doing the chores, buying food etc. etc. But, I was not taking care of my body.

Since our attention goes where our heart and mind are focused, which in my case were the higher dimensions, I went right out of my body. I was walking on flat ground right next to my husband, and I leaned down to adjust my left shoe. As I started to walk again I took a bit of a crooked step and then, suddenly, I was on the ground. Where I was between the step and the ground, I did not know. I did know that I had to surrender to my consequences of abandoning my body. I knew instantly that I greatly hurt myself and that a huge initiation had begun. I knew that I had repeatedly abandoned my body over my life. I had made my body my enemy and had not loved it.

I had a death experience when I was only six weeks old, but my mother came in to check on me and saw that I was blue. She lifted me up and shook and shook, but I still would not breathe. Finally, she held me upside down and shook me until I coughed and came back into my physical body. Perhaps, I never forgave her for that. I was a crib death gone wrong. When I was on the other side, I was greeted by three huge beings of light. I told them that I did not want to go back, but they convinced me that if I lived long enough, I would be able to experience a reality in which Faeries and Angels were on Earth intermingling with the people. Of course, in my vision the people were primarily children.

Therefore I came back and spent a great part of my life hating it here. Since then I have come to terms with my life. In fact, I am quite happy and love myself unconditionally. However, the karma had settled into my body and had to be cleared. If I were to ascend while remaining alive, I would have to do a lot of healing on my 64-year-old body that I have spent decades disliking.

I went to the doctor, and he tried not to tell me that I would definitely need surgery. I tried to believe that I would not need to “go under the knife,” but deep inside I knew that I would have to face that fear. As a child, I was abducted by the Zetas and would lose complete control of my body while they came at me with sharp objects. At 64 I had never had any surgery, and I did not want to do that now. Unfortunately, I'd seen the look in doctor’s eye and knew that in order to regain use of my right arm (so that I could write and type and drive and be independent) I would have to face my greatest fear. I would have to face becoming unconscious with sharp objects coming to my body.

Furthermore, I would have to confront this issue within less than four weeks. The tendon to the rotator cup of my shoulder was severed, and it would retract in to my shoulder in such a manner that they would not be able to fix it if I waited for more than four or five weeks. This was an initiation that I would not be able to avoid. When I finally surrendered to the reality that it was time to face that original wounding of my childhood and to step right into my greatest fear, I had the most amazing experience of being Lightbody that I have ever had.

I will now recount that experience that I had on March 8, 2011.


Dear Kepier (my fifth dimensional stepping stone SELF),

How do I do this? I feel that I want to flash into Lightbody, but I also know that I need to keep this form to assist in healing Gaia.


You need to have a parallel reality of Lightbody so that you can maintain your earth vessel. Then you can BE the higher frequency reality which you are ME, and maintain your earth vessel. Remember, we are hybrids.

Take the energy of the power of ascension within you and direct it into the parallel reality of our life on the Starship Athena. Project the energy within the core of your form towards your vision of us on the Starship

Do you see how this projection flashes both of us past our expressions of form and into our expression of a brilliant star?

Yes, you must believe this experience! It is s real experience in a real reality, a reality in which you can remember your SELF.

See us, Kepier and Suzille, as ONE being in our fifth dimensional room.

See the frequency bridge that leads directly from your earth vessel to our room on the Ship.

Do you see how this frequency bridge glistens and glows? Do not cross the bridge. Instead, you are to become the bridge

You are the bridge! You are the reality of your fifth dimensional room, which is interconnected to your third dimensional room. This room has now become a portal through which you can BECOME the frequency of the bridge.

Feel how your energy expands when we mention “becoming the bridge.”

Feel your light and observe how the archway of the bridge connects both worlds.

Do you see why you are been so dizzy?

Do you see why you cannot drive now?

Contain that energy that you experience as dizziness within your fifth dimensional SELF. Observe how you can gradually share that energy with your third dimensional self.

Feel the undulating motion of your head as you move it in the infinity sign to integrate your fifth dimensional expression into your third dimensional earth vessel.

Hear the crackling sound in your neck as you loosen old resistance to change.

Do this motion on a regular basis in that chair in front of the portal at your desk until the cracking goes away. This cracking is the sound of your releasing the density of its form.

I will return to you when you have released that density and your body is ready for the next part of our process. For now, this is all your wounded earth vessel can take.

Unconditional love

Your SELF, Kepier

You may think that after that experience I would be very spiritual. However, “what goes up must go down” in order for us to find the Center Point, the Fulcrum Point, the Point of Ascension. So down I went, deep, deep, deep into my subconscious, deep into the conscious perception of my “persistent reactionary patterns.” Again, I had to see the part of me that I had refused to see so I could love myself unconditionally. And how did that unconditional love look? It looked like surrender.

I had to surrender to my persistent reactionary behaviors so that I could clearly see the part of me that I had deemed as un-lovable. In order for me to ascend, I had to know all of me. Or, at least, I had to know how I reacted to my daily life. To totally integrate my Multidimensional Operating System into my third dimensional brain, I had to consciously observe how I was persistently using my Third Dimensional Operating System to react to my physical life.

My initiation actually began in December of 2010, when I publicly announced that I had been abducted as a child. It was this announcement that allowed me to clear away the shame that I had never realized that I had, so that I could heal that experience once and for all. Since I was a child when those experiences began, and had no one to talk to about it, I forced my feelings into my deep subconscious until I doubted that it had ever happened. Therefore, I had denied an important part of my self in order to hide that experience.

This denial of an early traumatic experience came to the surface of my consciousness as shame. This dynamic is very common among children that have experienced a traumatic event. Because they were out of control (because I was out of control) over the situation, I made it my fault. By making the situation my fault, I gained a small amount of control. However, because it was “my fault,” what I felt was shame. Then, as most children do, I forgot the traumatic event, but I remembered the shame. It was this deep, unconscious shame that had to be loved free.