May 5, 2011
Once we know where we are going,
We know what we have to do in order to get there.
Since our attention goes where our heart and mind are focused, which in my case were the higher dimensions, I went right out of my body. I was walking on flat ground right next to my husband, and I leaned down to adjust my left shoe. As I started to walk again I took a bit of a crooked step and then, suddenly, I was on the ground. Where I was between the step and the ground, I did not know. I did know that I had to surrender to my consequences of abandoning my body. I knew instantly that I greatly hurt myself and that a huge initiation had begun. I knew that I had repeatedly abandoned my body over my life. I had made my body my enemy and had not loved it.
Therefore I came back and spent a great part of my life hating it here. Since then I have come to terms with my life. In fact, I am quite happy and love myself unconditionally. However, the karma had settled into my body and had to be cleared. If I were to ascend while remaining alive, I would have to do a lot of healing on my 64-year-old body that I have spent decades disliking.
I went to the doctor, and he tried not to tell me that I would definitely need surgery. I tried to believe that I would not need to “go under the knife,” but deep inside I knew that I would have to face that fear. As a child, I was abducted by the Zetas and would lose complete control of my body while they came at me with sharp objects. At 64 I had never had any surgery, and I did not want to do that now. Unfortunately, I'd seen the look in doctor’s eye and knew that in order to regain use of my right arm (so that I could write and type and drive and be independent) I would have to face my greatest fear. I would have to face becoming unconscious with sharp objects coming to my body.
Furthermore, I would have to confront this issue within less than four weeks. The tendon to the rotator cup of my shoulder was severed, and it would retract in to my shoulder in such a manner that they would not be able to fix it if I waited for more than four or five weeks. This was an initiation that I would not be able to avoid. When I finally surrendered to the reality that it was time to face that original wounding of my childhood and to step right into my greatest fear, I had the most amazing experience of being Lightbody that I have ever had.
I will now recount that experience that I had on March 8, 2011.
How do I do this? I feel that I want to flash into Lightbody, but I also know that I need to keep this form to assist in healing Gaia.
You need to have a parallel reality of Lightbody so that you can maintain your earth vessel. Then you can BE the higher frequency reality which you are ME, and maintain your earth vessel. Remember, we are hybrids.
Take the energy of the power of ascension within you and direct it into the parallel reality of our life on the Starship Athena. Project the energy within the core of your form towards your vision of us on the Starship
Do you see how this projection flashes both of us past our expressions of form and into our expression of a brilliant star?
Yes, you must believe this experience! It is s real experience in a real reality, a reality in which you can remember your SELF.
See us, Kepier and Suzille, as ONE being in our fifth dimensional room.
See the frequency bridge that leads directly from your earth vessel to our room on the Ship.
Do you see how this frequency bridge glistens and glows? Do not cross the bridge. Instead, you are to become the bridge
You are the bridge! You are the reality of your fifth dimensional room, which is interconnected to your third dimensional room. This room has now become a portal through which you can BECOME the frequency of the bridge.
Feel how your energy expands when we mention “becoming the bridge.”
Feel your light and observe how the archway of the bridge connects both worlds.
Do you see why you are been so dizzy?
Do you see why you cannot drive now?
Contain that energy that you experience as dizziness within your fifth dimensional SELF. Observe how you can gradually share that energy with your third dimensional self.
Feel the undulating motion of your head as you move it in the infinity sign to integrate your fifth dimensional expression into your third dimensional earth vessel.
Hear the crackling sound in your neck as you loosen old resistance to change.
Do this motion on a regular basis in that chair in front of the portal at your desk until the cracking goes away. This cracking is the sound of your releasing the density of its form.
I will return to you when you have released that density and your body is ready for the next part of our process. For now, this is all your wounded earth vessel can take.
Your SELF, Kepier
You may think that after that experience I would be very spiritual. However, “what goes up must go down” in order for us to find the Center Point, the Fulcrum Point, the Point of Ascension. So down I went, deep, deep, deep into my subconscious, deep into the conscious perception of my “persistent reactionary patterns.” Again, I had to see the part of me that I had refused to see so I could love myself unconditionally. And how did that unconditional love look? It looked like surrender.
I had to surrender to my persistent reactionary behaviors so that I could clearly see the part of me that I had deemed as un-lovable. In order for me to ascend, I had to know all of me. Or, at least, I had to know how I reacted to my daily life. To totally integrate my Multidimensional Operating System into my third dimensional brain, I had to consciously observe how I was persistently using my Third Dimensional Operating System to react to my physical life.
My initiation actually began in December of 2010, when I publicly announced that I had been abducted as a child. It was this announcement that allowed me to clear away the shame that I had never realized that I had, so that I could heal that experience once and for all. Since I was a child when those experiences began, and had no one to talk to about it, I forced my feelings into my deep subconscious until I doubted that it had ever happened. Therefore, I had denied an important part of my self in order to hide that experience.
This denial of an early traumatic experience came to the surface of my consciousness as shame. This dynamic is very common among children that have experienced a traumatic event. Because they were out of control (because I was out of control) over the situation, I made it my fault. By making the situation my fault, I gained a small amount of control. However, because it was “my fault,” what I felt was shame. Then, as most children do, I forgot the traumatic event, but I remembered the shame. It was this deep, unconscious shame that had to be loved free.