Suzanne Lie, Ph.D., has been a seeker since she was a child where her active “imagination” took her deep into her inner life. She continues to regularly share her experiences and Arcturian teachings on her blog, Awakening with Suzanne Lie, and she wishes to help awakening ones come out of hiding and allow the glory of their highest expression of SELF into their everyday life.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Releasing an old Core Belief
I wanted to share an experience I had during Esoteric Acupuncture. I first had a series of treatments with this Acupunturist about ten years ago when I was starting my multidimensions website, which was really helpful in breaking through to a new expression of my self. Lately I have been feeling another new expression of my SELF, just beyond my conscious perception, so when life presented an opportunity to work with him again, I was happy to make an appointment.
I divert now for a bit of my personal history. When I was about 3 years my birth father left my life. Fortunately, I was adopted by my mother's next husband who was a magnificent person and a gift from my Soul. Then, when I was 33 years old and in deep psychotherapy while getting my PhD, my birth father came back into my life for a few months. This experience started off well, but ended quite poorly, and I was left with great gratitude that he was not in my life as a child.
Now flash forward to my being 63 years old. Do you see any themes here with time? It had come into my mind that perhaps the reason why I could not fully perceive and embrace this new expression of my self was because of an old core belief left hiding in my deep subconscious. As you can imagine, I had processed my "abandonment" many times, but the higher we go into our superconsciousness, the lower we go into our subconsciousness. Hence, it was time to take another dip down into the archives of my hidden sorrows.
For the first part of the acupuncture treatment I was face down. The acupuncturist saw some psychic hooks that he was releasing in my back, and guess you came into my mind--birth father. I don't remember too much of what happened for that part of my inter-dimensional journey, likely because I was deep in my subconscious. However, I did wonder if my birth father had died. For the second part of the treatment I was face up and the acupuncturist used the needles to open a portal which is between our Third Eye and Crown, just at our hairline.
Well, the first thing I saw was my birth father. He was trying to say something to me, but I was experiencing so many different emotions that I could not hear him. However, I was fully aware of may fearful emotions around and between us. Then, I felt the Arcturians come in and they told me to send my birth father unconditional love. As soon as I did so, I was totally calm, as was he, and he faded from my awareness. Then I took off on an incredible journey that started on the peak of Mt. Everest and ended on Venus, but that is for another time.
Days later I remember to check the internet to see if was still alive (he was somewhat famous). When I did, I discovered that he had died just a month before my acupuncture experience. I also found that he wrote a book about his life, which I immediately purchased. There, in the Dedication Section was a mention of his daughter Suzanne for whom he cared greatly. I also learned how he met my mother and had a picture of her holding me as an infant. He also talked about the Oracle of Delphi in his Prologue, which was significant as I clearly remember a lifetime I had as a Oracle of Delphi. In fact, he was the one in my genetic line who was "spiritual," although he had NOT healed his dark side when I met him at 33.
The result of this experience was that an old wound from my childhood was healed and an old Core Belief of "If my own father doesn't love me, how can I be 'good enough?'" The book was written just two years ago. Therefore, he did love me through all of his life. Also, if my image of my birth father on the "other side" was correct, then so was my inter-dimensional journey from Mt Everest to Mars and then to Venus. I look forward to the further unveiling of more inner journeys and of the next higher expression of SELF. We are on a wonderful journey that sometimes needs to go deep into our unconscious to expand our ability to travel higher into our superconscious.