Dear Sue,
I read about the Saturday download. It was the day after my
son’s surgery and I was sooo tired. I told my husband I was sorry, but I
fell back asleep and had a bunch of weird dreams again that day. I can’t
remember them because I was too busy taking care of my son once I got out of
bed around 1pm! All I know is that I have felt extremely depressed
lately. It’s not sad. I don’t even feel sad about anything, so it’s
weird. It feels completely biological and I keep thinking “why am I so
damn depressed?”
You don't even want to know what i have been through since i
did the 11.11.11 trial run through the stargate!!
Your
I really need to start writing and sharing. I guess I just
haven’t felt important enough to really follow through with it, and I get a
little scared about how I’ll feel about things once the words are out
there. Writing about my awakening always brings up feelings that I feel
guilty about since I’m still struggling to accept the reality I’m experiencing
right now. I’m not disappointed any more, but everything still feels off,
like I’m only tolerating the relationship and life because I feel it’s only
temporary or something.
i feel the same way and i love my husband very much.
It’s like I’ll accept anything for now as long as someday,
hopefully soon, I get to experience that feeling I had when I was with Michael.
we are ready to go Home
I don’t know what will happen if this process ends up taking
20 or 30 years. I mean to get to New Earth or any 5th
dimensional reality.
All the channeler are saying NOW Now Now
I’m afraid I will spend the next 20 or 30 years in bed wasting
away in the 3rd dimension and missing out on enjoying this life
because all I care about is starting over or remembering something better,
however it works. My life really isn’t that bad here, so it makes me feel
guilty that I’m so anxious to get the hell out of this life. I feel like
a bad mother because I’m not sure if my kids will be in that reality or not,
even if I hope they are. It seems uncaring to be so anxious and be so
ready to just throw in the towel and run for the first opportunity to get out
of here.
We are NOT throwing in the towel. we are creating a new
earth.
Did the arcturians say what we can do about this depression and
complete lack of energy? I’m going to start some writing again
today. I’m also ordering a new juicer. I HAVE to do something to
get some more energy. My house is an absolute mess, and I just want to
crawl back in bed to find out where my dreams will take me next.
go for it,
got to go, talk soon,
sue
got to go, talk soon,
sue
Dear Miranda,
Do you mind if I post this email conversation on the blog?
Sure, you can use anything you want that I have told you or
written. I had not read the portal article until after you wrote me that
email yesterday. I think my house may be a portal as well. About 9
months ago my son would not sleep in his bedroom because he said that alien
commanders were running down the hallway then through his bedroom and out the
wall. I can’t remember if I told you about that or not. He was so
scared, so I asked him to ask why they were here and he began having
conversations with a commander named Ryal who said he was from Jupiter.
Miranda
Thank you for posting this...I have been feeling the same way. Sometimes I will feel lighter, as if a great weight has been lifted. Other times, like today I feel great sadness(or heavy) and depressed. I am that I am...and I am ready to Ascend Now.
ReplyDeleteHI Sue; I have calmed down about mag pole shifts and realize I can help others better if I am not frantic and maybe even come back from the other side to help loved ones etc cross. There is nothing like having someone who did it to hold you hand..! :)
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Keith
Recently have been aligning my Chakras with earths and all beings on the planet to send light and unconditional love to Gaia and everyone. Feel like I am here to help in the transition to new earth and the 5th dimension. Sometimes have doubts and fear, but it has become less and less over the last few months, as I release those doubts and fears to Gaia for transformation into unconditional loveand light. Feeling a lot of energy these days around me and transmitting to all that I meet. Thank You for your inspiring blog, it is moving extremely quickly now and can get very overwhelming, but yoga and meditation helps me a lot. Nolushka
ReplyDeletethanks for posting...I can totally relate to the feeling that I am done here...it is so boring here ...want to move on...READY!!!!
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