9-18-11
I
hope it hasn’t been too long since you have heard from me in your time. I have
no way of knowing, as we do not have time, as you know it here. I have a strong
impression that my journey is being read. I don’t know how to explain how I
know things here, as I am just getting the hang of “Knowing.” The Friends say
that the most important thing is that we trust ourselves. There are no enemies
here to be on-guard against and we don’t have “bosses” who tell us what we have
to do. We DO what we ARE. I didn’t know what that meant before, and I still
can’t explain it, but I do Know it.
I
remember how at the end of our old world, or was it the beginning of this new
one, we all went into a sleeping kind state. Time seemed to grind to a
standstill and, along the end of time, all our routines, duties, obligations
and responsibilities seemed to have little importance. We all felt like we were
half awake and half asleep. We would move around and do some small thing, like
feed our bodies, and then we would doze off for another “sleep.” It wasn’t
until we met in this world that we realized that all of us was doing the same
thing.
It
seemed like an eternal Sunday where our obligations were not calling us, but
something else was pulling us deep, deep inside of our selves. It seemed like we
were at the edge of a deep tunnel, but this tunnel was filled with a warm glow
and a welcoming presence. There was no obligation to enter the inner tunnel,
but the temptation was irresistible. At first we entered it shyly like a young
kitten moving towards a saucer of milk. However, after we had gone just a short
way into the tunnel, we woke up without ever knowing we had gone to sleep.
Finally,
I decided that the next time I would remain awake the whole time I was in the
tunnel. However, the tunnel seemed infinite and I could only take so much of
the light, which grew brighter and brighter as I went deeper into the inner
tunnel. I had never meditated before, so I was unable to understand then that
the inner tunnel was a representation of my journey into the Core of my
consciousness. In fact, I didn’t even know exactly what consciousness meant.
The thing was, I didn’t really have a choice, and the drive to enter that
tunnel was so overwhelming that I couldn’t resist it.
The
Friends have told us that there were many people who did not give up their
daily routines, did not enter the tunnel, and some of them didn’t even see it.
There were many who could not believe in their own perceptions enough to trust
themselves. Instead, they saw the tunnel as some form of hallucination that
needed to be resisted.
Many
were experiencing these inner tunnels of light, but the ones who were afraid to
think outside of the box were sure that there was poison gas or something.
There was quite a buzz about the possibilities of great harm. On the other
hand, those that entered the tunnel could not believe there was any harm
because the tunnel felt so warm, safe, secure and, well, loving. Since these
love-filled tunnels were inside of our own imagination, or consciousness as I
later learned, we had the unusual experience of truly loving our self.
The
best part of this love was that it was unconditional. We didn’t have to do
anything special or be anyone different or better. Likely, for the first time
in our life, we felt that we were perfect just the way we were. I cannot begin
to tell you how wonderful that was for me. As I said before, I was just a
regular kind of guy. I had done nothing special, nor did I feel special in any
way. Nonetheless, while I was in the tunnel I felt like, I don’t know how to
say it, I felt like I was ALIVE for the very first time.
Because
I had to slowly adapt to the tunnel I would eventually “fall asleep” and wake
up outside of the tunnel, but each time I could stay in the tunnel longer and
go deeper and deeper into it. As I went further into this inner tunnel of light
the sensations began to change. At first they were soft and gentle, like a
morning breeze. However, as I entered deeper parts of the tunnel, the light
became as bright as a mid-day Sun in summer. It was then that the changes began
to take place.
For
one thing, when I went into the tunnel again, I found myself no longer at the
beginning of it, but instead found myself at the place/brightness that I was in
before I “fell asleep.” Once I entered this brightness, the sense of love
became so overwhelming that my body could hardly contain it. In fact, the body
that I went into the tunnel with was NOT the same body I was wearing at this
depth of the tunnel. Yes, I know that sounds weird, but as I continue this
journal you will hear things that are much weirder than that.
Before
I close this journal entry, let me tell you what happened to my body when I was
in that light. It is hard to describe it, but it was like my body kind of
disappeared into the light and actually became the light. While I was in the
tunnel it was like I had no body at all. Then, when I “woke up” in my old
world, my body was glowing and felt very different. At first I could only hold
this glow and unique feeling for a few seconds, which progressed to minutes,
then even as long as an hour.
For
a long time I was stuck at the hour mark of being able to maintain that light
body, and I was getting frustrated. Then, I began to hear voices in the tunnel
and see glistening forms quickly move past me.
At first this frightened me, and I immediately found myself outside of
the tunnel. I decided that my fear didn’t allow me to stay in that light, so I
concentrated on overcoming that old habit of fearing anything that was new.
With
the release of that old fear of change, my process progressed exponentially.
The first difference is that, without the fear, I stopped “falling asleep.” I
began to learn that when I had experienced all that my consciousness could hold
, I would will myself out of the tunnel. I learned this skill by mistake. One
time, I was getting overwhelming and on the edge of that old feeling of fear
and I instinctively called out, “Enough!”
Instantly,
I was outside of the tunnel, and able to remember every part of my experience
because I had not fallen “asleep.” I was learned to accept that which I did not
understand and to wait until I could understand it. Because of this new
attitude, which we free of fear and self-judgment, I found I could accept
greater and greater light. Furthermore, the unknown light beings that had
swished past me before could feel my growing self-confidence and remained still
at the edge of my vision until I was ready to address them.
Inside
the tunnel there was no time, so I don’t know how long it took before I found
the courage to address them, but in outside, earth time it was quite a while.
Suddenly, one day I told myself that when I went into the tunnel this time, I
would address these beings. That was when I first met the Friends. Since that
first meeting they have been my continual companion. I say “they” because they
are of a Group Consciousness. Generally, they exist a pure consciousness, but
will willingly take on any form that makes us comfortable, so that we can
better communicate with them.
I
feel like I should take a moment here to tell you that my life within the
tunnel gradually became the time when I was AWAKE, whereas my life outside of
the tunnel became the time when I was asleep. I walked through my mundane life
as if I was dreaming. Somehow, I knew that I had to still play the “3D Game,”
and go to work, pay my bills, do my chores and see my friends and family.
However, I found that I was mostly spending time with people within whom I
could share my experiences in the tunnel because the, too, had found and
entered that inner tunnel.
We
even got together in groups and went into our “separate” inner tunnel and found
each other in the tunnel that we had formerly thought was just ours. First we
started in the same room, and then we found that we could be anywhere. All we
had to do was to decide to meet in the tunnel. Then, no matter what time or
place we were in outside of the tunnel, sure enough, we would find each other
inside our “own” inner tunnel.
At
this point, the separation between tunnel, friends and family was not the same
in our outer worlds either, because we all felt like ONE being when we met
inside. This is when I/we addressed the Beings who appeared to live inside the
tunnel. On the other hand, one of the first things they told us was there is NO
outside or inside, for there was NO time or space to create that kind of
“separation.”
That
statement was a bit of a shock for me.
Even though I had experienced that unity, I figured that was just inside
the tunnel, and the tunnel wasn’t real, was it? I guess I had been so enamored
with the “meditations” I was having that I never thought that I was actually
moving into a whole different reality that was based on a totally opposite
foundation.
The
shift from thinking in terms of time and space to Here and Now is largely why
we are in New Earth. This reality appears much like our old life in many ways.
We appear to have separate bodies, but we do see the light that flows between
them and connects us to all life. Also, the bodies warp in and out between
Lightbody and a denser version of that form. The Friends have told us that this
denser version, which looks like our old form, only it is totally healed and
youthful, is a temporary condition until we are ready to move into the Mid-fifth
dimensional realities.
Personally,
I am not quite ready for that. Besides, I am really enjoying this world. I am
planning now, which could always change, to stay in this world, the New Earth,
and help the ones in Matrix World to see what they are missing. I, also, feel
like I need to gain more wisdom, inner power, and I need some more work on the
unconditional love of my self. The Friends tell us that our full force of
unconditional love, which is the Source of all creation, will only be realized
when we love ourselves unconditionally. In other words, we can only send out as
much unconditional love as we can have for our self.
Oh,
yes, that brings up the whole part about our Multidimensional SELF and how we
have myriad expressions of our SELF all over the Multiverse. But, I will have
to understand that a LOT more before I can share it with you, whoever you are.
I am signing off for now, but I send you my unconditional love.
Totally inspiring. Thank you.
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last week i had an amazing experience ... i just fond my self moving on a tunnel with geometric pattern of light ...like small dots of light ..with feeling of love and peace i have never ever felt it before ..amazing ..amazing ..amazing ...and then suddenly while im on this tunnel moving so fast and looking to this beautiful light patterns i become aware of my body too ..laying on the bad ..then i was like : what the hall is this ..it was so real ...but then i decide to open just one eye to see if i still see this tunnel and the patterns ( which i regret it now ) ...when i opened one eye i was able to see this patterns and my room in the same time ..it was really weird ..but beautiful... then the experience just ended with sensation of vibration on my body ..the whole experience last just 20 to 15 seconds ..
ReplyDelete- please suzzane if you can tell me what was that ?? it is the same tunnel you are talking about or something else ?...i really love you even though i just fond your blog ..
- and im sorry ..my English is not so good to explain this amazing experience .